Give Me A Reason

'14'

Alicia Pov

I woke up this morning well rested. I took my time getting out the bed. I took an extra long shower to wash my thoughts away. After soaping myself up, I sat under the shower head and let the water pour down my worn out body. I took that time to finally ask myself how I felt. Not just about August but how I felt emotionally, mentally and physically. How I felt about the whole Kenya scandal and I came up with this one conclusion and that was to not let none of it stress me. Don't let August stress me. Don't let Kenya stress me and most importantly don't let my insecurities stress me. As for that August thing, he could either love or hate me and we all know he don't hate me. And as for Kenya, she can either leave or beat me which we know she ain't beating my ass.

After finally becoming honest with myself I realized that there's only one more person to be honest with and we all know who.

When I got out the shower I decided to put on a simple white short dress and I wore my hair natural.

I looked at myself one more time in the mirror and I said to myself...

"You don't have to be like everybody else. You don't have to love like everybody else. Make Alicia happy because she's someone who really deserves it."

I stared at myself for a few more seconds then I smiled at the confidence I was gaining.

Moments later I got up and went into to the kitchen and began making breakfast. I figured that August should be here So in and he could possibly be hungry. I made us both an omlet with one piece of bacon on the side. I poured two glasses of orange juice and like click work the door bell rang.

I opened the door and was pulled into a hug. It felt so right which for first time I wasn't affraid to hug back. I didn't have to look at his face to know it was August. I just layed my head on his chest as he held me in his arms. I heard his heart beat. It was at a calm steady paste which made me open my eyes to see his face.

It never crossed my mind that we were still in the door way until he asked could he come in. I led him to the table where I found layed still hot. When we first started to eat it was silent but I decided to break the silence.

"How you been lately?" I asked trying to make conversation.

"I've been trying to come up with ideas for a plan. What about you though?" he said with a smile.

"I feel absolutely great." I responded.

"You lookin absolutely great." he said raising an eyebrow, making me laugh.

"You need to stop trying to play. But I do want to talk to you about something very important whenever you ready."

"You can tell me know. I don't mind." He said, while getting ready to eat another piece of his omlet. "Is it about Kenya?"

"Noooo. Its actually about You and me." I said waiting for a reaction.

"Well go ahead baby and say what's on your mind." He sat back in his chair.

"Well first I got to say that I have this crush on you and lately I just couldn't get you off my mind. For a while I denied how I feel about you, but that's not your fault. Its just I always deny love no matter who I'm getting it from. Really August me denying everything was starting to tare me apart so this morning after thinking about it hard I came to the conclusion that Im going to have feelings for you weather you feel the same or not but please don't take that last part the wrong way."

I said everything that I sat out to say but I know this isn't the 32nd of this conversation but I at least want to know how he feels..........

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Hi readers😄 I tried to end this chapter with a little bit of suspense. All Alicia's questions will get answered in this next chapter. So read to see her faith with August. A surprise might happen too😏 Anyway y'all enjoy and I do appreciate all y'all who vote and comment. Y'all give me a reason to keep writing😭 pls vote, or comment.

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