Getting the job at the gym was a god send. I could finally start to become independent. In a few weeks, I'll be able to move out of my brothers house, and into my own. I want to make it my own. I've never been furniture shopping, and I don't really know what I'm going to need. Luckily, I don't cook that often. I know that Quincy enjoys it, and for that reason I'd buy all the equipment that he could dream of. I want to make him happy in any way that I could. Eventually, I want to be able to spoil him rotten. Seeing as I've never done that to anybody before.
Lately, I could tell that Monroe has been feeling guilty. He's offered to pay my rent, and buy me a car. I know that he has my best interest at heart, yet he needs to understand that all I want is my independence. I've been pushing off talking to him, and I regret that. It's becoming harder and harder to sit him down. With his company kicking off, and expanding I feel bad for taking up his time that he spends at home. That should go towards Kendall. I wish that he was around more though, I could see the sadness in Kendall's eyes when he doesn't make it home to dinner. The way he sighs and wraps up Monroe's food. Placing it in the microwave.
When I was in the military, I witnessed need. Need for their family and loved ones. It hurt them, being away from them. One of my colleagues, Vince, has three kids and a wife. He wouldn't stop talking about them, how Maddie, his eldest lost her first tooth. I could see it in his eyes that he wanted to be home.
A similar look shines in Monroe's eyes as soon as he leaves the house.
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"Fall back!" I scream as bombs drop above us. The whiz making my ears ring. Commands are being tossed out everywhere, making it hard for the men to follow them. I watch as one by one, the bombs reach the ground. Causing destruction effortlessly. Debris flies through the air, hitting us and anything in its path. I hear the groans of the injured men. I try to keep track of what's happening, yet I couldn't move my body fast enough. A bomb goes off to my left, causing my ears to pop.
"Get down!" My superior commands over the loud noise. Without thought I drop to the ground. I watch as time slows down. My men don't follow me. Instead they go flying back from the impact of a land mine. I open my mouth to scream for them, but nothing escapes. I look to my right and almost gag at the sight in front of me. One of my men's head is blown off, leaving behind a burned vessel. You can't tell who it was. The smell alone made you want to pass out. My hand reaches out. As if I could help the dead soldier. When I grab onto his body, the scenery changes and I'm in my old hospital room.
"What's happening?" I scream out. The doctors and nurses around me don't seem to hear me so I try again but louder. Yet once again, I don't even get a sideways glance. I watch as they scream one another.
Talking about loss of blood,and how brain damage could be a risk if they don't stabilize me. What's wrong? Am I dying? There's so much in life that I haven't done yet. I want to beg them to help me. Let me live. I want to plead God to give me a chance. A chance to prove to him that I'm worth it. That I could do good,help others. Yet all I could do is watch as the doctors try to bring me back to life. Please God, let me return home.
--------"Walker wake up. Please!" Monroe's voice sounds. Shaking my shoulders. I try to open my eyes but it's too hard. The headache that's causing me to feel like death makes to hard to breath. Let alone open my eyes. I feel tears streaking down my face, making me briefly embarrassed before I remember that this is my brother.
I finally manage to open my eyes. The sight that greets me makes me feel even worse about the trouble that I'm causing. I can't continue to burden them like this. Monroe's eyes are red and puffy from sobbing, Kendall is crying behind him a look of terror in his eyes. God what's wrong with me.
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Disregard To Danger (ManxMan)
General FictionBook four of the danger series. Walker Monroe fled a life filled with abuse to join the military. When he returns after an honorable discharge, he finds his world has turned upside down. Will Walker embrace his future, or will his disregard to dang...