What Doesn't Kill Me...

Chapt. 5 - Malaysia

Hard times come, can you stand the pain?
Can you stand the pain?
Would you take the knife, take away yo life
Cut off everything? Can you take the pain?
People stab you in the back
Keep think yo own friend will do you like that
Can you stand the pain? Lose yo family
Your friends to the game?
They neva comin' back. Can you stand the pain?

I listen to Rocko x Pain as I walked home from school.

I relate to this song so much. Nobody knows I cry myself to sleep and wake up wishing God would just call me home.

I feel empty, I don't know what's missing. I know my parents love me, my siblings love me. But something's missing.

Lately Ive been getting that empty feeling fulfilled by sleeping with an older man.

Malaysia Adams, 16 years old. Student at Southside High. Curly hair, mixed, with sexy brown eyes. I stand at 5'0, with a figure that have grown men trying me.

"Aye Laysia where you going?"

I looked across the street as I kept walking and noticed an older man, look to be atleast 25 looking my way.

I stopped as he ran across the street.

"Damn I thought you wasnt gone stop mamii."

He smiled at me and showed those pearly whites.

There's nothing like a chocolate tall man with a fresh shape up and straight white teeth with big sexy lips.

"How you know my name?"

He blushed and looked away.

"Just know I know."

I noticed his eyes roam my body.

I stood there dressed in my jeans that fits my hips and thighs just right with my gray long in back short in front shirt that shows my Hello Kitty belly button ring. My black sandals, black purse, and matching jewelry.

"Soooo you gone tell me your name?"

He smiled and looked into my eyes.

"My bad. Im Rich, short for Richard.... May I ask where you headed?"

I hesitated and looked around.

"Home, right down the street."

He nodded.

"Well I have to get back to work, that's my barbershop over there. Here's my card, you should use that number."

I nodded and gave my flirtatious smile as he ran back across the street.

I stuck the card in my purse as I continued my walk home.

Ill definitely be using your number.

"What took so long Laysia?"

I was greeted by Mon and Shad.

"Nun, I stopped by the store."

He nodded and walked off. Mon followed but didn't take his eyes off me.

"Laysia is home !!"

I yelled as I walked into the apartment as I do everyday.

"Hey love, I cleaned up your side of the room today."

Nervousness grew in my stomach as I stood there talking to my mom.

"Okay, thanks ma."

I quickly walked in the room to check my bottom dresser.

Yess, she didn't find em.

Relief took over me.

I keep condoms in my dresser under all my extra school supplies.

Everyone thinks im a virgin but Ive been sleeping with an older man name Tony for awhile now.

Its just something about him that gives me a feeling I can't explain.

Nobody would understand.

Not even Taj.