What Doesn't Kill Me...

Chapt. 9 - Quan

Staying with my ol lady tonight.

She been mad at a nigga so Im gone try to make it up to her.

"Aye mama, Im gone."

"Keisha?"

"Yeah. Call her phone if you need me."

"You need to stop doing her like that Quan. That's a good girl, and she love you to death. When you get locked up she get you out every time. Them hoes just there for the sex and the money..."

"Iight mama, I love you."

I kissed her cheek before I left the house.

As I got in Keisha turned the music down.

(Keisha at the top)

"If you got a gun or any drugs on you get back out."

I shook my head and shut the door.

"Im clean baby. Ray taking over tomorrow."

She turned the music back up and Chris Brown x Back to Sleep played on our way to her house.

Baby let me love you back to sleep once more
And I know we dont speak no more
But I just wanna tell you Im sorry
For fucking round with Keisha and MaKayla
For all the Georgia peaches in Decatur
For all these bitches in the elevators
I just want you to love me
Yeah baby dont test me
You know ill do it
Want me to say your name girl?
Okay, Karrueche !

"I cooked dinner. Know you hungry."

This why I fuck with her, she take care of ha nigga, even when she mad at me.

We went up the stairs to her apartment.

"Sup Quan, what you got?"

I looked back at a guy I fuck with on the regular then at Keisha.

"Man Im off the clock."

I continued to follow her up.

"Im missing out on money."

"Well shit Quan, if its that damn important go do ya thing and take ya ass home."

"Its not that big of a deal babe."

She opened the door. I locked it as she went in the room.

"Your plate in the microwave if you want it."

"Ill get it later. What's ya problem man?"

She sat on the bed and stared at me.

"Where you was at the other day when you was suppose to be with Ray?"

I shook my head and leaned against the wall.

"Home."

She looked at me harder.

"Home? Cause I saw Ray and she hasn't seen you. I saw Taj, she had no clue either. Stop bullshitting me like Im stupid. The bitch posted a pic of you sleep on her snapchat Quan."

Tears ran down her face as she continued to stare at me.

"Keisha.."

"I swear I dont wanna hear it. Save yo lies for somebody else. I dont do nothing but work and come home. That's it, sit here and worry about yo ass. Praying that calls from ya mama is just her checking on me and not to aware me of some bullshit you got going. I been down for you since high school. 9th grade, none of these bitches be there when you locked up or the time you got shot. Its niggas that try to fuck with me and first thing I say is you know Im with Quan. Im out here curving niggas while you out here giving bitches a reason to laugh at me."

I stood there not knowing what to say.

She went into the bathroom to clean her face before going in the kitchen to warm my plate and get me some juice.

"Here."

She handed me my food and undressed leaving nothing but her panties and bra on before getting in bed.

"Not gone shower with me?"

"Nope. I got some more of that body wash you like and some more underwear."

I ate my food in silence before showering and getting in the bed.

"Baby?"

She had her back turned towards me.

"What?"

"You really be curving niggas for me?"

"Yeapp."

I hate seeing her cry man.

I slowly slid up behind her and wrapped one arm around her to see if she would make me move.

She didnt.

So I wrapped my other arm around her and pulled her close to me.

"Quan you dont know how bad this shit hurt. All these bitches know I fuck with you. I been down for you since we were just friends, 10 years old. These bitches dont compare to me. You know they dont. But when Im tired and Im not here nomore. Dont say shit. Dont call me, dont text me, dont pop up at my door. Just let the pain sink in."