After Aria told me what happened to her parents, there was no more sound in that small hospital room. Aria was fumbling with the end of her hospital gown while I was frowning at the sight of the petite girl. I can see her thoughgts all messed up, I can see her struggling with herself, only by one glance.
Her hair what used to be so sleek and shiny, had gotten thin. The curves from her body which I used to adore, were gone. I could count her ribs. Her red cheeks were gone, her face was pale and white. The sparkle in her eyes was gone, they only had depression and sadness in them left.
I think she was right. This girl is broken beyond repair, and it is not romantic. Not at all. But it was up to me to pick up every lost piece and glue her heart together, to fix this girl where I can.
"Aria.." I started and looked at the girl who was still playing with her gown. "Just because your dad saved Noel's father, doesn't mean he has the right to hurt you. It doesn't mean you have to go on with him, it doesn't mean you're obligated to walk down the isle to him one day, I don't think your father wanted that"
"Oh Ezra, you don't have a single idea how messed up my life is" Aria chuckled and pulled a loose string from the seam of her gown
"Thell me, we can do this Aria"
"You keep telling me we can do this Ezra, but can't you see that I can't fucking do this? Can't you see I'm too fucking weak?" She hissed before she aggresivly pulled the string from her hospital gown
"Aria, Aria calm down" I said and grabbed her hand but she yanked it away
"You know what Ezra? You want to know why I tried to kill myself? You want to know why I did that right? Guess what Ezra, this world is a scary place. You never know what's gonna happen. One day you're Aria the perfect student and the next day you're Aria the school slut. People judge you in a splitsecond these days, but they never wonder how you could feel about all comments they make about all your fucking imperfections. No, I'm not flawless, I'm not perfect, I know that, I freaking know that!" Aria screamed before she slammed her pillow against the wall. "But hearing all your imperfections every single day, over and over again, no. No I can't do that. This society is fucked up, why can't anyone see that?!" She screamed while banging her fists against the wall untill they started to bleed.
"Why can't anyone see how damaging this is to our generation?! Why do I, out of all people have to be punished for this?! Fuck Ezra, why can't I be normal, just like the rest of us?!" She yelled when I finally overpowered her. I took her arms in my hands and pinned her down on her bed untill she calmed down a little.
"So, do you have your answer now or wasn't I clear enough" she said with eyes that shot right through mine. Something in her switched, something changed. Her eyes that used to have depression and sadness in them, had no emotion left at all. Nothing, not in a single cell of her body, and I think that was the most frightening thing about this whole conversation.
"Aria, I'm sorry.." I said but she yanked her hands out of my grib and turned away from me.
Was she overreacting?
Yes.
Did I mind?
No. We musn't forget this girl is far from a healthy mental state.
"I don't need your sympathy" she hissed before she pulled the white blanket over her head and hid herself from me. She shut me out again. Maybe she was afraid to expose herself, because so much people have hurt her when she did, or maybe she was afraid I would leave her, just like her parents did. It wasn't their own choice though, I think Aria felt alone after they died.
I wasn't planning on leaving Aria in this room like this, so I stayed and waited for her to open up to me again. I knew it was gonna take a while, and I knew it needed time and patience, but it was worth the wait. After a while of staring at the little bump under the blankets I heard a knock on the door. I stood up and walked to the door to expose Aria's doctor along with Nelly.
"Oh dear, where's my girl, can I see her?" Nelly asked before the doctor could even speak
"Sorry, her mother came in a while ago but I heard her screaming, is everything alright?" The doctor asked but I shook my head.
"She's far from okay" I mumbled
"Hey, hey who are you actually? What are you doing with my Aria?" She questioned before she barged through the door and walked to Aria
"Aria doll, do you have a boyfriend I didn't know about?" she chuckled but Aria didn't move from that spot under the blankets
"Go away" she hissed
"Aria, I just got here, I wan-"
"GO AWAY!" Aria screamed and curled herself up even more. Nelly stood up with a shocked face and the doctor took her with him to the waiting room.
"That's enough" I said before I walked to Aria and ripped the blanket of her body
"What the fuck do you think you're doing?!" Aria yelled but I ignored her and scooped her petite body in my arms. She tried to wiggle out of my grib but I was too strong.
"I'm taking you home. This has to stop." I mumbled before I walked out of the door with Aria in my arms. I just wanted to exit the hospital when several nurses and doctor ran towards us and tried to stop me from taking Aria, but the rebel in me ignored their voices, along with Aria's, and placed her in the cab I had just called. Oh, what a badass I am.
The whole ride home was silent. Of course, Aria was shutting me out again but I wasn't going to leave her. She admitted she needs me, she admitted she needs help. There was a little spark of hope in me that she would calm down when she sees a familiar spot, a home, so I took her to my appartment. When the cab parked in front of the door I scooped Aria in my arms and as soon as my arms wrapped around her legs she nuzzled her head in the crook of my neck, like she always does when I carry her. I walked upstairs and opened the appartment door where I gently placed Aria on my bed, stroke her hair, placed a kiss on her forehead and filled the bathtub with warm water.
"Come on, take a bath, it'll help you" I said as I tried to help Aria out of bed but of course, she wouldn't cooperate at all. I grabbed her waist and pulled her arm over my shoulder before I dragged Aria to the bathroom. I put her down on the ground, grabbed my razor blade and closed the door.
"Call me when you're done!" I yelled. Of course, I didn't get a respond. I grabbed some pillows, layed them on the couch and put on the tv while I was waiting for Aria. After a while I still heard nothing so I decided to go in and check up on her. When I opened the door I saw Aria had wrapped her arms around her knees and was rocking back and forth while she was staring at the white bathroom wall. She didn't even try to shower. I sighed, filled a bowl with water and poured it over her hair before I started massaging her head with shampoo.
"If you're not gonna do it yourself I guess I have to" I smiled before I grabbed some conditioner and put it in her long mane. When I was done I washed it out with water, helped her out of her hospital gown and in some sweatpants along with a big hoodie. I carried her to the couch and layed her down.
"I chose a real chick flick, I bet you like the Notebook" I smiled but before I could even start the movie Aria stood up from the couch and slowly walked to my bedroom.
"Don't do this, I'm a waste of time. Just let me die" she mumbled before she slammed the door.
This girl needs some serious help, and I'm gonna take care of it.
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Black Roses (Ezria)
Fanfiction"Cause we're young and we're reckless, we'll take this way to far" "It'll leave you breathless, or with a nasty scar" This is not your average love story. This is not a story about a young, perky teenager. This is not a story about a teenager who...
