The Campus Mistress Meets The Playboy [COMPLETED]

Chapter 33 - Same Girl

ROXANNE

That name. Cerese. Cerese Island. Kapangalan niya ang isla. Bakit ipinangalan ni Hunter ang isla sa babaeng ito?

Cerese. More than that, her name .. it sounded so oddly familiar to me. Do I know her?

I think I know her. I felt like I knew her .. for a very long time. But how? Where? When? I knew it. I think I've seen her somewhere. Why can't I remember her?

Cerese.

For some reason, everytime I say her name in my head, I undeniably felt a pang in my chest.  Biglang naninikip ang dibdib ko. Bumibigat ang pakiramdam ko.

What is this? Why does her name affect me this much? Why does hearing her name can give me so much pain? Pakiramdam ko nauubusan ako ng hangin sa katawan.

Who is she? Who the hell is she?!

"I know you." Hindi ko napigilang sabihin. It was just a whisper but she seems to hear me clearly. Her smile dropped, her brown eyes went wide and her small face turned white. Bigla itong nag-iwas ng tingin mula sa akin.

"I .. I better go." Cerese said, her eyes still on the floor.

Seconds later, Cerese' back was on me. Then she started to walk but I was fast enough to stop her from leaving. I grabbed her wrist tightly. I think something was wrong, especially when I saw her face in distress and in panic. Naramdaman ko ang pagkaakaalarma niya sa ginawa ko kaya muli siyang napatingin sa aking mga mata.

"My name is Roxanne. Roxanne Rojas." I said sternly.

I don't know why I told her my name. Siguro dahil gusto kong malaman ng babaeng ito ang pangalan ko. Gusto kong malaman niya kung sino ako.

Strange, but I felt that I want her to be scared of me. I want her to be scared .. in just hearing my name. I wanted her in pain. I wanted her fears. I craved for her tears!

"Kilala mo ko." Hindi iyon patanong. I'm not asking because I was so sure, rather I'm stating a fact from instict. From my forgotten memories.

"Hi-hindi."

She trembled, trying to break free. But I can't allow her yet.

"Hindi kita kilala."

I saw her eyes glistened, like she was about to cry.

"Bitawan mo ko. Please."

Iba't ibang emosyon ang lumukob sa pagkatao ko nang makita ko ang pagdaloy ng kanyang mga luha. Hindi ako makaramdam ng awa. Hindi ako naguilty. I don't feel remorse at all.

Bakit umiiyak ngayon si Cerese? But the real questions are .. Why do I want to see her cry? Why does seeing her tears felt like an air to breathe? 

Nangibabaw sa akin ang galit. I was in rage in an instant. Hindi lang basta pangkaraniwang galit ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. It was more than that. Ito yung nakatagong galit sa pagkatao ko dahil sa lahat ng pagdurusa ko. I have a strong urge of burying her alive. No, it would be better to eat her alive. I wanted to eat her alive.

Am I having a mental breakdown right now? Dahil kahit ako, hindi ko maintindihan ang sarilli ko. Ang damdamin ko. Ang iba't ibang emosyon na nararamdam ko sa mga oras na ito. Hindi ko maipaliwanag kung saan nanggaling ang ganitong katinding galit at sakit para sa babaeng nagngangalang Cerese.

"Rose."

I heard a familiar voice from a far but decided to ignore it. My eyes were focus to this filthy bitch. I felt my nerves on wire, so alive.

"Roxanne." Hunter latched Cerese' hands away from my grip and I swore I don't like it even a bit. Hunter intervened again. He always had. But this time, it was different. Different from before, he's not intervening because of me — because he wanted to protect me. Instead, here deep in my gut, I knew that he's intervening because of Cerese.

Nainsulto ako. Pakiramdam ko, ininsulto ako. Inagrabiyado ako. Tinapak-tapakan. Most impprtantly, I felt betrayed.

Siguro dahil hindi ako sanay na may ibang ipinagtatanggol si Hunter maliban sa akin. And because of that, I saw blood. I want to go for a kill. I want to kill Cerese. I want to kill everyone.

Nakita kong nagtago si Cerese sa likod ni Hunter, puno ng takot ang mukha nito. Hunter was in protective stance. He's protecting her.. from ME? From his girlfriend? Damn it!

"Stay here."

After Hunter said that, he was gone. He was gone with her. With the other girl. Iniwan ako ni Hunter nang ganun ganun lang.

When I watched Hunter walked away from me, it appears to me like he really was walking away from me. From my life.

When I watched his retreating steps, I saw invisible knives aiming at me, that I can't even shield myself from it. It was all new to me and too late when I realize that Hunter can cause me this much of a damage and put me in this unbearable pain just by simply showing his back to me.

The truth was, I waited for him to look back. I expected him to turn around, leave Cerese, walk towards me and stay next to me but still, Hunter vanished before my eyes and it only then, everything occured to me, that he did none.

When realization hit me that he won't chose me this time, I felt betrayed. I felt cheated. I felt the familiar pain starting to crept into my heart.

The reality really slapped me hard in the face that it woke me up from my expectation and from my fantasy.

Looks like my expectation ditched me as Hunter ditched me pretty good.

Inaamin kong nagkakaraon na ako ng pagduda. Pagduda sa kanya. Sa pag-ibig na tinutukoy niya. Dahil hindi ko maiwasang maramdaman ang sakit ng maiwanan. Na iiwan na niya ko ng tuluyan. Na hindi na siya babalik para sa akin. Na mananatili na lamang siya sa tabi ng Cerese na iyon.

I dreaded the day that Hunter would be finally done with me. And I can't accept that. I can't let that happen. I won't let him.

Akin na si Hunter Grey Villegas. Kaya dapat walang ibang babae. Dapat walang Cerese. I clenched my hands into fist when I felt a void in my heart.

The painful feelings that crept into my soul and broke my heart to pieces seems like it would remained within me for a very long time.

At muling nabuhay ang takot at pagkamuhi sa aking pagkatao.

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I was restless the whole night. Hindi ko masyadong nakatulog dahil sa dami ng aking iniisip.

Hindi ko na alam anong iisipin ko. Bakit wala pa si Hunter? Hanggang ngayon, hindi pa rin siya nakakabalik.

Kumagat ako ng kunti sa tinapay na nakahanda para sa almusal ko. But I don't even have an appetite. Sino ba namang babae ang may ganang kumain kung nasusulot na ng iba ang boyfriend niya?

I can't stay here. Kaya lumabas ako at agad hinanap si Karlos sa hotel. Namataan ko siya malapit sa pool kung saan abala itong nagseserve ng drinks sa ibang mga turista.

"Karlos!"

Agad namang lumingon si Karlos at magiliw na ngumiti sa akin. Pero hindi ko man lang masuklian iyon dahil sa iritasyon ko kay Hunter.

"Si Hunter?"

Mukhang nabasa ni Karlos sa aking mukha na wala ako sa mood.

Itinuro agad ni Karlos ang pinto sa kalayuan na mukhang office. Wala pa sa alas kwatro akong naglakad papunta roon.

"If I were you, I won't walk in there. Or.. you will die. I think it would be too much for you to witness another betrayal. Of the same surname. With the same girl."

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Next Chapter: Glass
"Every rules has an excemption. He is my excemption. My saviour. My miracle."

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THE CAMPUS MISTRESS MEETS THE PLAYBOY
BY: songjongki19

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