"The world is a big place filled with insignificant people who will judge you for no reason. Sometimes you may feel alone and like you have no one to turn to but Emily I promise you that you will always have me."
Emily is torn apart after her bad b...
I woke up to Luke's arms around my waist and my head on his chest. I was still mad at him but I was too comfortable to move.
I looked up at his face to see his mouth slightly open and his hair all messy. He looked so peaceful. He snored very lightly and for the first time I noticed his super long lashes. When his eyes are open the color takes away from how beautiful his lashes are. I'd kill for lashes that perfect. I never understood why boys always had great lashes when they didn't even need them.
He was sleeping so soundly that I didn't want to wake him. So I carefully unwrapped his arms from around me before I slid out of bed.
I went into his bathroom to freshen up before I went downstairs. I took a shower and brushed my teeth. I made sure to not use his toilet because now I have a fear of screwing it up. My phone said it was gonna be about 75° so I decided to get dressed in my white crop top and my blue/white marble skirt. I applied a light coat of makeup and tested out my new pink lipstick called bubblegum. I curled my hair quickly and slipped on my strappy sandals before leaving Luke's room and going to the kitchen.
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I kind of knew my way around so I was able to find the kitchen without too much trouble. I walked in to find Ryder mixing something in a bowl.
He had music playing that I recognized as King of Leon's and he was dancing around. He was using the spoon as a microphone and singing all the parts. It was quite a sight to see. I leaned against the doorway and watched him perform.
He went through about 3 songs before he turned around to go to the fridge.
"Shit!" He yelled when he saw me. I just stood there smiling. Took him long enough.
"Emily what the fuck are you some kind of stalker!? How long were you standing there?" He asked as he glared at me. I just shrugged.
"Long enough." I smiled. Ryder rolled his eyes and continued on towards the fridge. He stopped dancing and singing. He was so strange. He obviously was a normal person so I didn't understand this tough guy front he put up.
"Hey can I ask you something?" I asked as I twirled a strand of hair around my finger. Ryder looked up at me for a second before looking down again.
"No." He said as he poured the pancake mix into the pan. I rolled my eyes. I was just gonna ask him anyway.
"Why do you hate me, have I offended you or something?" I asked. I adjusted my skirt as I waited for his response. He had his back turned to me.
"Why would you think I hate you." He said emotionlessly. I ran a hand through my hair.
"Um maybe because you constantly insult me and act like I'm the worst person you've ever met." I said walking into the kitchen and sitting at the counter. I heard him sigh before he turned to face me. His face was like stone, I could never tell what he was thinking.
For a while he just stared at me as if he was in deep thought and wasn't really looking at me, just thinking. I nervously twirled my hair, playing with my hair was my go to nervous habit. We just sat in silence for a while.
"I'm not good with people. I don't easily trust, so don't expect me to welcome you with open arms because I won't. I don't know you and I don't trust you. Its not that I don't like you, I don't really have an opinion of you yet." He finally answered. He turned back around to tend to the food and I nodded my head accepting his answer. I could live with that. People had to earn trust I understood that.
"So what time will everyone wake up?" I asked him. I already knew the answer was noon but I was just making conversation.
"Noon." He said. He didn't attempt to extend the conversation he just answered and let it go. I could already tell he would make talking a very one sided thing. I sighed. No matter how hard I tried I could never let there be awkward silences which was so bad because I would make conversation that was forced and then made uncomfortable which was a whole different type of awkward. So basically I sucked at talking. Silence fell between us again so I tried to start another conversation.
"So do you guys have pancakes all the time because I love them it'd be so cool to have everyday pancakes." I said. That was one of the most awkward sentences I've ever uttered. I tried to ignore Ryder's snicker at my word vomit but in a silent room its hard to not hear it.
"I was trying to make conversation." I said rolling my eyes. Ryder just shook his head.
I decided to spare myself anymore embarrassment by going to see if Luke was up. Before I could make it out of the kitchen Ryder spoke, he was leaning against the counter watching me.
"Are you and Luke serious?" He asked in a very nonchalant way. I was a little taken back by his question, why would he care? I cleared my throat before responding.
"Yeah we are. Is that a problem?" I asked crossing my arms over my chest. Ryder's whole demeanor put me in a bad mood. He gave me a blank look for a while.
"Yeah it is a problem because as I'm sure you know, he's in a gang. A very dangerous gang. We're leaving for a mission in 2 days and its a big one. I can't promise any of us will make it back and I don't need some broken girl wandering around crying. This gang isn't a joke. Its not something you can turn a blind eye too and hope it'll just go away." He said as he continued to give me a blank look. What did he mean they had a mission in two days, Luke would of told me.
My heart sank. I tried to appear unaffected by his words so he wouldn't question me further. I nodded my head a little before quickly walking out of the kitchen.
Why would Luke not tell me? That's kinda a big deal. I was becoming angrier as I thought about this. I had to take a few deep breaths before I entered his room just so that I wouldnt run in and start hitting him. He was sitting up in bed going through his phone when I walked in.
"Hey." He smiled at me as he looked up. I didn't respond. I kept a blank expression. I had been trying to not be pissed but I was failing. He gave me a strange look.
"Is this about last night? Because I already told you." He said, putting his phone down so his full attention was on me. I crossed my arms over my chest and started glaring at him.
"Em what's wrong?" He asked. He looked concerned which he should be because I was about to pummel his face in.
"You're leaving me?" I asked. I thought I was pissed but apparently I was really upset because my voice broke as I spoke. It was thick with emotion.
"Emily I would never leave you. It was one fight okay that happens in relationships." He said. He still thought I was caught up on yesterday.
"I don't give a fuck about that! I give a fuck about you! How could you not tell me about your dangerous mission you have in two fucking days!?" I yelled, well I guess I was pissed after all. Luke dropped his head in his hands.
"Emily I was going to tell you today, I just didn't know how." He admitted as he looked back up at me. I laughed darkly.
"You just didn't know how to tell me? Oh thats funny. I obviously still can't trust you because this isn't something you can just push off, you could fucking die! You know what fuck you Luke I'm done with this." I stormed out of the room and heard Luke running behind me.
"Em wait!" He yelled. I stopped walking. I really wanted to forgive him but I don't know if I could. Maybe it'd just be easier to avoid the chance of getting hurt all together. Maybe we should end this.
"Emily I'm sorry I hurt you, that wasn't my intention. I don't want to leave you so I'm gonna fight like hell to make sure I come back to you. This isn't easy for me okay being in this gang wasn't something I wanted. What I do want is you, so please don't leave me." He said. He pulled me into a hug. For a while I didn't hug him back but then I did. I cared way too much about him to let this get in the way of us.
