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"You fucking bastard!"
I remember how much I'd cried that night because of a mere dream. Mere... but terrifying and it felt so real. It could be one of the missing pieces of my past memory. It was blurry so I couldn't tell what really happened in that dream however, one thing is for sure... it's this guy's face.
I started thinking if everything that's happening right now is connected to my past. And I'm doubtful if everything is real. But how? Halos lahat ng iyon sa panaginip ko ay hindi ko lubusang maunawaan. Pero ang mas hindi ko hustong maintindihan ay kung bakit nasa memorya ko ang lalaking ito.
Wala akong matandaan na nangyari ito mismo n'ong bata pa ako but I can't just ignore the fact how real and raw the scenario is.
In that dream, I was hiding inside a cabinet while peeking carefully at a small hole. I was terrified for my life. I was trembling. I was covering my mouth, afraid that someone might hear me. Then I saw a man wearing a black coat and I'm a hundred percent sure that this man is the same man I've seen years ago. Nothing changed on his physique and aura.
Iniisip ko kung anong ginagawa niya sa panaginip ko. Suddenly my body felt the urge of killing him but I resisted. I looked at him attentively. He hasn't changed at all. Ngunit hindi ako mapakali hangga't hindi ko iyon nakukumpirma mula sa kanya.
"Are you one of the trespassers on the same day when my Mom died?"
Tila nagulat lahat ng ka-myembro maliban kay James. He was just standing behind me.
"So you remember me~ FINALLY!"
Nanggalaiti ako bigla dahil sa galit. Maaring padalos-dalos ako sa mga ikinikilos ko pero may pinaghuhugutan ako nito.
"You piece of shit! Sabihin mo sakin! Anong ginawa mo noong araw na iyon!? Bakit ka nand'on!? N'ong araw na namatay ang Mama ko!"
I attacked him with a full blown punch. Mas malakas noong una. I'm not yet satisfied of the punch I gave him compare to what my family has been through all these years so I punched him non-stop. Halos wasakin ko ang pagmumukha niya. Wala na akong pakialam kung maging mamamatay-tao ang tingin nila sakin. I just want to finish him! I want justice for my Mom!
"Is this your revenge?" Natigilan ako.
"If it is, the hell you care!? I just want to kill you right away."
Tumawa siya na parang nababaliw. He spit the blood from his mouth and looked at me.
"I'm stoked that you have no clue about what happened all this time. I'm curious what your lovingly father did to you."
Hindi pa tuluyang nagpo-proseso sa utak ko ang sinabi niya nang may maramdaman akong humila sa akin palayo. An arm was enveloped on my waist. Hindi ko namalayan na may mga patak na pala ng luha sa pisngi ko. Nagpumiglas ako ngunit hinigpitan niya lalo ang hawak sakin.
"Let go of me!"
"You'll get hurt. It's better if you subside your anger first so you could think properly about your next move."
Kalmado niya iyong sinabi. I looked at James and he's so calm, opposite of what I'm feeling.
Ibinalik ko ang tingin ko sa lalaki at ngayon ay nakatayo na ito. He wiped the blood from his lips and touched the bruises on his jaw.
"Let's play," aniya.
"What do you want?" tanong ko.
"Let's play save or die."
