You Can't Stop Love (BOOK1)

Chapter 45 - Just die✔

2 weeks later

Dear Ethan,

I've been to 2 appointment's so far and our lil' one is doing well! My dad has been coming with me to the appointments since my mom doesn't want to be part of the baby's life. And I seriously don't give a damn. My bump isn't very visible, but there's a photo for you to show you the size of our peanut!❤
I miss you so so much. Andy told me your mom paid for you to be in house arrest. How I wish you were near me instead of me writing this to you. I hope you're doing okay
And your dad.. Please tell me he hasn't done anything to you!! Cause if he did I will seriously go ballistic. Just.. Be careful okay baby?
God my body is just aching for you Ethan. I need hugs and kisses from you now.
Im sorry I got you into this mess. I love you till my very last breath, and our lil' one loves you aswell. Don't pressure yourself. I'm glad I'm pregnant to be honest. Miss you so so SOO much!

Jenni xxx

A few tears ran down my cheeks as I stared at the two photos of Jenni. She was stood sideways so I could see the size of her bump, feeling my heart clench and the other one was her facing the camera with a big fat grin on her beautiful face.

She is so gorgeous and perfect for me.

Placing the pictures down, I quietly cried. My invisible cord to her feels like its ripping on its own. I haven't heard her voice in ages. I need a nice hug from her right now.

Why do I have to go through this shit? Why do I feel so alone?

What about Martina? Jeez! I got her pregnant aswell and god knows how she much feel right now! God im a dick!

"Andy!" I yelled and Andy ran into the kitchen with his coffee in hand.

"What's up Gates?" He asked me, shaking.

Standing up from my chair, I limped my way to Andy. Last week, Dad kicked my knee and I still need to get it checked because the pain is unbelievable.

"I need you to go and get a lady named Martina. She currently lives with a friend. You know the only church in this town ?" He nodded, "There is that only house?" He nodded again, "That's the place. When you go there, bring her here. I need to talk to her," I told him and he finished his coffee and handed me his mug.

"I'll be right back!" He said while running to the front door and slamming it shut.

I'm now home alone.

I'm not supposed to stay alone.

Oh fuck it.

Taking off my shirt, I walked to the bathroom and stared at my chest in the mirror. I had a couple of purple/green bruises. That man just takes his anger out on me when I'm doing nothing wrong.

Making eye contact with myself, I watched the tides in my eyes.

Nobody loves you. Everyone is scared of you. Jenni will never take you back. Martina will hate you. Zara and Marcus wont even want to call you family. Your own kids will be scared of you. You will be locked into a jail cell and no one will visit you..

No one will visit a paedophile like you..

You don't deserve to be in a place like this Ethan. Just end it all. There is a pool out back. A knife in the kitchen. A gun under your bed. Kill yourself before you slowly die by reality itself.

"NO!" I screamed as I punched the mirror and it smashed, little pieces flew and cut my face and arms.

"NO! NO! NO!" I screamed even louder as tears formed in my eyes and started pouring out from my eyes.

"No.." I whispered to myself as I curled into a ball on the floor and cried harder and harder.

~×~

"He's woken up!" I heard Andy yell as I opened my eyes and realized I was in the lounge.

I was about to sit up when hands softly pushed me back down onto the couch "Calm down Ethan," I heard Martina's soft voice and I twisted my head and stared at her and then to her stomach.

It's so big.. I mean obviously she is 20 weeks pregnant. And she was actually wearing normal clothes. She looked like a normal pregnant lady.

Well a very beautiful lady.

"Ethan, I heard about you being arrested and all. I had no idea how to contact you but yesterday I had an appointment with my doctor and I know the gender!" She beamed with excitement and I felt like something good finally happened.

Thank you.

"What is it?" I asked her excitedly and in a rush.

She took a deep breath and lightly placed her hand on her tummy, "It's a boy Ethan!" She smiled with tears forming in her eyes.

Turning my whole body around, I hugged her tightly and placed one hand on her tummy and rubbed it.

"Hey there little guy. I'm your daddy," I whispered as I lowered my head to her tummy and kissed it.

It's a shame I won't be here for my little guy.

~×~

Yoooo

Seriously ethan makes me cry and ugh i cant take it. I love him way to much and to just break him is breaking ME

this book will soon come to an end.. Maybe around 10 chapters left. Something like that. But then there will be LOADS of bonus chapters

make sure to add book 2 to ur reading lists and wait for that little notification to pop up when I post a new chapter!

seriously I love u guys so much ❤

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-Riley xx