Dear me, Dear you

rain

Dear me, Dear you

March 31

the sky looks so sad and gloomy but I like it no wait I love it

I never explained to anyone why i liked days like this

I love it because I don't feel alone
when I cry I feel as of I'm the only person like this

when I get upset I feel so alone and bitter

when it's rainy and gloomy or dark outside I feel like I'm not alone any more as If some one else is sad too

I don't know if I'm making any sense...

I probably sound like an idiot but the sadness of other people or things is comforting to me

but it makes me wanna curl up in a ball and cry as well too

that's not the only reason though
I also loved the memories

like the time when I was seven

me and my best friend well more like my brother came over and we were being obnoxious little kids running and playing in the rain like there was no tomorrow

......~FLASH BACK~......

"MAXXX! YOU GOT ME ALL WETTTTTTT!!"

"so what the rains getting you wet too what's the difference??"

I wanted to slap him he's such a smart alic

"what's the difference?!' I tried to speak in the most sarcastic tone I could

"I'll tell you the difference mister, first off the rain doesn't have legs to splash water on me and second the  rain cleans things including me" I snapped my fingers but I honestly had no clue as to what I was saying i just wanted a point to argue

"when you jumped in the mudd puddle it got a whole bunch of mud on me max now I feel gross ans the rain stopped so I can't get it off."

I sounded sad but I wasn't I was having fun. I loved being with max he was my one and only friend he's there when no one else is

"oh, well...I'm sorry fay I did-I didn't mean too"

"oh hush you big baby stop saying sorry it's kay"

I gave him the biggest hug possible then grabbed his arm and drug him around with me and started running around like we're crazy kids

"I LOVE YOU MAX YOUR THE BEST BROTHER I EVER HAD!"
I yelled at the top of my lungs as if I wanted the whole neighborhood to hear

"I love you too sis"

and with that said we started laughing at nothing making the best of our day

......~END OF FLASHBACK~......

I miss max I wish he'd come back but I know he's better off he was so sad I imagine he's happy now that he's away from all his hurt 

I'm gonna get some sleep babe kay?

sincerely me,

I love you always I promise