Dear me, Dear you

dear you,

"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!?" I yelled

I hated my grandmother she's the reason I am the way I am

she's been yelling at me for the past hour and I just can take it any more

"OKAY!! I SAID YES MA'AM!!"

by this time I was fuming I couldn't take this I swear I had flames on the top of my head. I just wanted to hang up the phone throw it across the room and yell at the top of my lungs.

"okay. bye."

I eagerly hung up the phone and screamed I was afraid to throw it cause I didn't want to break it I wouldn't get another one

I layed on my bed motionless. I've been starring at my ceiling for a while I tried counting the  spots on it but found it pointless when I had lost count for the third time

since I had nothing better to do I grabbed the journal I was given I guess I it wouldn't hurt to write some

Dear you,

March 27

Hey babe. I really miss you I miss myself too...I miss how I used to be but..I'm scared to tell you that I don't want you to be sad when your sad I get sad your the only thing that makes me happy.

I'm tired, it seems like that's all I am these days. Tired.

the songs playing are making me think of you. a lot.

I wish...

I wish a lot of things

happy Easter too. I don't know what's so happy about it it's just another day.

that's one of the things I wish. I wish I was little again not to start things over but to get back in spirit with the holidays. now every holiday that comes around is just another day for me and I know it shouldn't be that way but I guess it just is

I'm gonna sleep some okay? I love you always I promise

sincerely me,    

"I love you"