Thin lines between love and hate

Chapter 34

Dominique's POV:
This whole break up situation hasn't been easy. I'm trying to move forward with my life, but I feel like I'm being held back, trapped in the world's atmosphere. I feel like the breakup was harder on me than it was on Ray, of course I cheated and I regret it with a dear passion. If I could go back and change that day, I would in a heartbeat. The sad thing is I still want to be with him, but he wouldn't allow that. Maybe it was destined for us to break up, maybe we weren't meant to be together, maybe I was just a holding place for someone else. Someone who would treat him better than I did, won't take him for granted like I did. I hope one day that we can move pass this, I really hated the way that it made me feel, to know that I treated someone I love so horribly. I need to apologize and if he doesn't accept it then so be it.

I grabbed a piece of paper and pen and began writing.

Dear Ray,
I just wanted to apologize for everything that I did, I took you for granted, I treated you as if you were nothing. You mean the world to me and you were the best boyfriend I could ever have, you were the best boyfriend that I ever wanted, and you were the best thing that ever happens to me. I pray that you will one find somebody better, hopefully they will treat you better than I did, better than I could. I also hope that this will help us move forward, but if it doesn't then that was the way it was supposed to be. I want you to know that I still love, I'm still IN love with you and I will alway love you no matter what and I know that deep down inside that you still love me too. I think about you everyday, every morning when I wake up and every night before I go to sleep. You were my first love, you made me smile, laugh, you took care of me even when sometimes I didn't want you too. I appreciate you with all my mind, body, soul and spirit. You were my light and once again. I will always love you.

Sincerely,
Dominique

After writing that letter, I got an envelope and put the letter inside, closing it up and putting his name on the front. When that was done I grabbed my things and headed to his dorm room sliding the envelope under the door and walking  away with warm tears running down my face and praying that one day he would read it.

Ray's POV:
I was just about to head to my parents house when I noticed a white sheet of paper at the front door on the floor. I went to go pick it up and saw it was addressed to me, I opened it and began to read.

Dear Ray,
I just wanted to apologize for everything that I did, I took you for granted, I treated you as if you were nothing. You mean the world to me and you were the best boyfriend I could ever have, you were the best boyfriend that I ever wanted, and you were the best thing that ever happens to me. I pray that you will one find somebody better, hopefully they will treat you better than I did, better than I could. I also hope that this will help us move forward, but if it doesn't then that was the way it was supposed to be. I want you to know that I still love, I'm still IN love with you and I will alway love you no matter what and I know that deep down inside that you still love me too. I think about you everyday, every morning when I wake up and every night before I go to sleep. You were my first love, you made me smile, laugh, you took care of me even when sometimes I didn't want you too. I appreciate you with all my mind, body, soul and spirit. You were my light and once again. I will always love you.

Sincerely,
Dominique

After reading the letter I wondered if she really meant it or just wrote it to get sympathy. I didn't know whether to nether or not, my mind is telling me no but my heart says yes. I placed the note back into its envelope and placed it into my back pocket, I grabbed my jacket and keys and headed to my parents. I needed some advice.

I arrived at my parents house and immediately went to knock on the door when my mother already had it opened grabbing me into a hug "I'm so sorry baby, I know your hurting but it will get better" my mother said "I hope so" I replied back releasing myself from the hug "so I'm guessing your here to talk" she asked as I walked in heading heading to the living room "yeah I am, but I also have something to show you" I said taking the letter from my back pocket and handing it to her "what's this" she asked taking the note from from me "it's a letter Dominique, apparently she's 'sorry' I said making quotations with my fingers "what if she is sorry" my mother replied "mom is she was sorry, she wouldn't have cheated on me" I said to mother, my voice slightly raised "I understand" she replied back to me while reading the rest of the letter "well, you may not think she's sorry but I do" she said handing me back the letter "sometimes we will love a person and they just don't know how to love us back. Listen, I know it's gong to take a while to get over this but when you feel like your ready to move on and can face this situation like your supposed too then please find the time to talk to her" my mother said, I rolled my eyes "and what if I don't mom" I said "Ray, your father and I have raised you better than. So I'm going to need you to be the man that you are and straighten this out" she said with empathizes in her voice. I knew she wasn't joking, my mom don't play "fine" I said getting up from the couch and heading to the door "I mean it Ray" she said following me to the door as well "I said ok. Later" I said before shutting the door quickly behind me.