A 2nd Chance In September | Kousei x Kaori + Sequel FF

Chapter 26- Confused, Tangled

Chapter 26- Confused, Tangled

Arima Kousei's P.O.V.

I can't sleep.

I was a fool. Such a fool. She'd been sending out clues and signs that she was there all along, and yet how did I missed those? It was so obvious for heaven's sake.

I've been spacing out lately ever since Misaki-san confessed. I don't really know what to feel right now. All i'm sure about is that i'm confused throughout.

But for now, it's not me who's the most affected about the situation. It's Kuroma-san and Kagero-san. After learning about how she lied to them, I know it's not that easy to work things out.

She never changed back then. She still lies. She's so cruel.

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"I, Miyazono kaori, a violinist could still remember. Everything." Kuroma-san and Kagero-san widened their eyes of disbelief, while I just dropped my jaw. I couldn't believe that she was there all along.

Soon, Kagero-san produced tears flowing down his cheeks as he took a step backward from her. "How could... You." He muttered.

Misaki-san changed her expression from a serious one to a worried and fearful one. "Gomenasai. Onii-chan. Please forgive me."

"Forgive? You think it's that easy to accept it?" Misaki-san felt hopeless. She thought about being such a fool. Ofcourse it's not that easy for her two siblings. After all their hard work to protect and take good care of her, from the day they sent her to America, she'll just tell a lie for her own good. I wonder why. Why would she do such thing?

"Onii-chan, I can explain." Soon, Kagero-san headed back to the mansion with his fists clenched tightly, fighting back his tears ignoring her words.

Her look landed on Kuroma-san giving her a panicked expression. "Onee-chan, please listen-"

"Don't." She said with anxiety while sobbing. "Just... No." She finally left giving us a heavy at atmosphere. Finally, she looked at me pleading for help. "Arima-kun. I'm sorry for lying once again."

I didn't gave her an angry expression nor a happy one. I looked at her with a serious face. "Miyazono-san, i'm sorry. Maybe everyone just needs time to think, including me." I gave her a light smile. A comforting one. "Would you do it for us? I'm hoping to restore everything anyway."

She constantly produced tears and suddenly hugged me tight. "I'm sorry a hundred times over." She whispered.

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Thinking about it just makes my head heavier. I sighed.

I decided to reread the chorus of Kuroma-san's composition for our task.

'Happy, sad, lonely, angry,
Sometimes uneasy but sometimes unfree,
This is life so let me help you scream out loud,'

'Let me write the lines for you,
And draw the circles with you,
I'll stay with your paper of sorrow,
And let me be the pen of tomorrow.'

I don't know if this is just a coincidence or not, but this lyrics fits us well.

Soon, It rained pretty hard. I watched the transparent glass window as raindrops fall down its surface. It rarely rains during autumn season yet why does it feel like the rain is falling down so heavily? Slowly, I stood up and traced the raindrops on the window with my thumb.

While marking its path, I saw a wandering girl dripping wet beyond the surface. She has neither an umbrella nor a jacket with her. I Quickly recognized who was it for a second.

Kaori.

I went downstairs quickly to get some spare umbrella and went outside the gate to catch her up.

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Sawabe Tsubaki's P.O.V.

I learned from Kousei last night about Misaki-chan's memories. Now I started worrying more about us.

Come to think of it, now that they knew about Kao-chan's constant memories in the past, there's are chances that we might be getting back from where we started.

'A start where I would always be left behind by Kousei.'

"Oi, Tsubaki. Are you listening?" I suddenly felt a cold thing touching my cheeks which effectively gained my attention. It was a canned soda from Nao-chan. I gave her a deathly glare for surprising me. "What is it?"

She sighed. "I think you're hiding something, and I got an instinct that this is about Arima again." I was about to deny it, but I thought this might be a perfect time to confess to Nao-chan. After all, she was able to help me countless times from the day we became friends. "Kousei? She's busy with Misaki-chan. The girl I was talking about when we had our practice which resembles Kaori."

I didn't told her about her real identity though. I'm still loyal to our promise. But who knows, maybe Nao-chan might get the idea. "That girl?" She carefully scratched her head, thinking about it.

"You know, Tsubaki, if I were you, I would also probably be jealous of her knowing that he focuses his attention more to that girl. So I suggest to keep your eyes on Arima instead of wandering around, hoping for a better day for you two. You have the authority because you're his girlfriend. That is when you still want to strengthen your relationship. I'm not saying that you should put aside your trust on him, but you know the phrase 'keep in touch'."

I lately realized that this was the same spot I went through when I confessed to Kousei back then. Same scenery and same scent of the sentimental rain. "I know what to feel, but that's not the case here." I've been worrying about one more thing.

"Then i'll let you choose, a love that's worth fighting for, or a love that's willing to let go for the sake of someone's happiness?" That hit me well. I looked at Nao-chan with a shocked expression for reading my thoughts. "how did you-"

"It's all written on your face. You're too obvious, Tsubaki. Now you have the time to think about it."

Eversince the day I confessed to him, I knew I have no chance for him. He has his eyes on someone else, and yet i'm right here feeling foolish. But after we thought about Kao-chan's death, I was always there for him. The second time I confessed to him, he finally accepted me.

I knew he was just forced to do it. To give me a chance. But his feelings weren't that as authentic as how he felt for Kao-chan. He loves her more than anyone else. I know that, i'm not that numb. Maybe that's why Kao-chan is still here. Fate, I guess? If that's the case, I blame fate for giving me a such cruel role.

'Thus, I could say that our relationship was just a mere illusion. No matter how hard i try to fit in, we're just not really for each other.'

I chuckled. It hurts so badly.

~To Be Continued~