Banana Pancakes

Chapter Five

[remmy boy]

13:45
WOO!

what

I just got the agenda for Europe, we head to Ireland first and then Switzyland

ew

but Ireland's pretty!

Wales is better

okay, u got me there

hah in ur face

damn, someone's salty

so u excited?

I'm so pumped Rem, but it's going to be boring af on all those trains

I'll be there to talk to u lol, what am I to you??

I didn't mean anything like that!

sure u didn't

did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed today?

you should know by now that I always wake up on the wrong side

well then, mr snappy pants

ur no better

Since when?!

I'm just messing with you

I hate when u do that

(: no u love it

I really don't

((((((:

okay fine

heh

ugggggh I have to go, I've got practice before a big game, then I agreed to go to the cinema

20:02
guten tag, you free now?

sup m8 and yeppers

nothing really, just watching gossip girl and cool beans

dear fucking god, how did I ever think you weren't gay?

hey it's a good show, it's a++++

ur a+++++++++

and ur a manwhore

ouch

it had to be said

well I forgive u bc I'm nice like that

fine so what's up with you?

20:37
just third wheeling

aw that's unfortunate

it is
James and his gf are full of shits and giggles while I'm just texting my fake BF

they think I'm your boyfriend?

21:36
they don't keep their nose out of things, both of them

hm still doesn't explain it

don't worry about it anywho I've got a question

yes?

how old r u? I'm 19

18 sadly

are you in your last year?

fortunately, I can't wait to leave

that's how I was during the summers when I lived with my parents

did you go to a boarding school?

yeah I still do, but I moved out of my parents and now I'm at James's house during the summer when we come back from Uni

oh that's always good

what about you?

what about me?

you go to school, live with anyone?

oh well I'm homeschooled actually and I live with my parents

homeschooling always sounded intriguing

22:48
its not all that great, having my mom as my teacher.. ugh it gets annoying

I bet ur mom's a nice lady, and it couldn't be that bad

She is.. but I'm more so the problem

What do u mean?

I've got ptsd

Oh
Wow

It's not too bad, it's pretty mild and I haven't had an episode in the last half year
I'm getting better

Well that's always good to hear remu

You're actually the first person to ever say anything like that
but idk I can't see your face so

You think I'm lying?

Well u could've been
Sirius?
Hello..
WHY ARE U CALLING ME

Call started: 23:07
"I am so not lying, you shit face. I can't believe you actually thought I was a liar!"

"Well I didn't know! You could be a murderer for all I know! And what's with this spontaneous call?!"

"To prove I wasn't lying, Remus."

"And how would you prove something like tha-"

"Just shut up and listen. I want you to know you don't deserve the shit other people have given you. I had an uncle who had ptsd and he didn't get through it, he ended his own life. I would never lie about how proud I am of you, okay?"
"Remus? Hello?"

"Oh, sorry.. I just can't get over how deep your bloody voice is."

"Really, Remus? I swear.."

"No, no.. I'm sorry. Please don't think I'm inconsiderate, I'm so sorry for your loss.. It's just shocking. My parents aren't exactly helpful.. they think any medication can heal me. They're afraid to even touch me, thinking I'll freak out. I just kind of wish I was normal.."

"Well, think of it this way, we are all our own normal. And your ptsd is only a minor setback. As soon as you begin feeling happy.. then it won't seem as bad to you anymore. We've both got light and dark inside of us, Remus. You can choose to let one overpower the other, it's your choice."

"I have been feeling happier. I think.. it's because of you.."

"Oh, you do? Well, then I'm staying. I won't leave you.."

"Thank you.."

"Rem.. are you crying?"

"N-no.. It's okay.. I'll be fine.."

"Alright, Moons.. Why don't you get some sleep?"

"Can you.. just.. never mind.. It's stupid."

"What, what is it? You know I'm able to handle anything."

"When aren't you cocky? But.. uh, could you maybe stay on the call with me until I fall asleep?"

"I'd love to."

"Okay.. goodnight.."

"Night, Remu."

Call duration: 06:42:01