Banana Pancakes

Chapter Fifteen

Lily, Sirius, Remus

October 29 08:04

Remus, I can't keep lying to James
I'm sorry, but maybe you and Sirius should get back into contact again

Lily.. Please.. Just for a few more days

Remus, I don't have a few days
The part is tomorrow night! I'll be seeing him there.
I'm not a good liar in person..
I've kept up this act of not knowing you
Avoiding the situation won't help matters

But he was with another guy

You two weren't official

But.. it felt that way

I understand, but this needs to be real life.. this needs to happen
You two need to see one another, or else what you two have won't be real
You know I'm not for long distance

I know.. he doesn't even know my lily is his lily..
I'm just afraid, I'm so scared..
I am so sorry for making you do this, you can tell James the truth
It was wrong of me

Remus.. You're my best friend.. Of course I'll cover for you when you need it, it's just that you also need a little push.

I know, thank you Lily.. I'll text him

I'm not saying he isn't a dick though, what he did wasn't cool, especially towards you, but James has been telling me about how beaten up he is about you..

Im sure he doesn't care that much

Remus don't start that
The way he talks about you, he absolutely 100% cares.
Trust me.

Alright.. I'm sorry, Lily. I really should start thinking more about others and less about myself.

You said it, not me. ;)

Oh whatever :P

October 29 20:51

Okay
I've finally mustered up the courage to message you
Please don't spam me with apologies
I just want to say I'm sorry for blocking your number
"Sirius, by God that was quick-"

"Waiting. I've been waiting. I've called you everyday, eleven times just because that's your favorite number and because I can call almost every other hour. I sound like a stalker, but Remus.. I'm so sorry.. It was wrong of me.."

"No, Sirius.. We aren't even together. We aren't boyfriends. There's nothing stopping you from doing that.."

"But you're my Moony.. and I was planning on really straightening out for when we met. I was going to put effort into our first date.. And our dates to follow.. I dream about the future, and curse the past for not allowing me to know of your existence until now...."

"Sirius, I-"

"Remus, I might fucking love you. Can you just please let me apologize so I can feel better about myself?"

"W-what... uh.. um yes, sure.. just.. continue.."

"Thank you. Now. Where was I? Oh! Right, okay. So, I want to apologize. I wish I could have never met that guy.. I'm not sure if you'll believe me, but he resembled you.. and I was drunk.. It was a bad decision. One I won't make again."