Completed Heart

Chapter 23: Alone

Chapter 23: Alone

“Susie,” someone brushed his fingers against my cheek, “Susie, babe, wake up.” I opened my eyes slowly to see Louis sitting next to me on the bed. Liam was nowhere.

“Where-”

“Liam? He had to go help get the other lads organized. He sent me up here to wake you up. The lads and I got back about an hour ago and we are getting our shit together so that we can leave.” I nodded and climbed out of bed. Without saying another word I trudged downstairs, with Louis right behind me.

“Aaaah!” Zayn yelled, “She’s ALIVE!” I rolled my eyes at him. Harry looked me over, not bothering to hide it in front of the boys. Liam cleared his throat.

“Uh, Suze, I thought you were going to change what you slept in whilst the lads were visiting.” I took a sharp intake of breath. I was wearing a tight tank top and really short shorts. Zayn and Niall were looking me over as well, but I hadn’t noticed until now. They quickly looked in opposite directions when Liam turned around. Liam chewed his bottom lip and shot the three single boys warning looks.

“We need to load up the car, lads.” He turned, raising an eyebrow. Niall and Zayn raised their hands and started to laugh. I saw Louis and Harry creep out of the room slowly. They were really hell-bent in not helping out no matter what the cost. It had been like this all week. As Liam, Niall and Zayn loaded up the car, I wandered into the kitchen.

“There you boys are!” I exclaimed, seeing Louis and Harry sipping tea at the counter. They looked up at me, but made no effort to move. Harry refused to meet my gaze.

“I’ll leave you two to it, then.” Louis stated awkwardly and began to walk out of the kitchen. Harry grabbed his arms, shooting him a look. What was that about?

“Or, I’ll just stay here.” He returned to his former position against the counter.

“I actually need to go gather some last minute things. You know condoms and whatnot.” Harry said coolly before brushing past me. I turned to look at him, only to catch him staring at my bum. He just smirked at me, winked and left the room. Ok, so Harry was back to cocky, douchebag Harry. Louis looked at me sympathetically and patted y shoulder. I scrunched up my eyes and pinched the bridge of my nose. My last few hours with Harry and he is spending it being a dick.

“He’s just upset, that’s all.” Louis tried to explain, I just shook my head.

“Look, Susie Q.,” Louis came closer to me and wrapped his arms around my shoulder, “Harry sees this girl, who he wants, but is off-limits. Try to understand.”

“I do understand. I am in the same predicament, Lou.” He nodded.

“The difference is you HAVE a boyfriend. Harry knows that you are very happy with him. Harry ISN’T happy. He is single and he hates it. He is trying to get off of his, er, old ways. He wants to be with you, but he knows he can’t. It is hard for him to leave you when he knows you’ll just go straight into someone else’s arms.’

“I had my boyfriend BEFORE HARRY!” I threw my hands up in frustration.

“Well, if it counts for anything I may not have my boyfriend anymore.” I added, more quietly.

“What?” Louis froze, “Explain.”

“Don’t tell anyone, ok? Especially not Liam because he will flip the shit. If you think it’ll help Harry, then I guess you can tell him.” I started, he motioned for me to continue.

“Ty texted me yesterday. He said that we needed to talk. I don’t know why, though. I did something 

bad. Harry kissed me, a few times. I only kissed him back once, though. When I did kiss him back, it was full on snogging. I feel terrible. I feel like a filthy whore. I have to be honest with Tyler, I am going to tell him everything. I owe him that much.” I hurried my explanation. Louis nodded.

“First of all, congratulations to you and Harry. Secondly, you are NOT a dirty whore. You have feelings for someone else. You just wanted to explore these feelings. It was once, not a reoccurring incident. It isn’t like you slept with Harry, anyways. Also, it is respectable that you want to be honest with Tyler. If he breaks up with you, it’s his loss.” He comforted me. I put my head into his chest, holding back tears.

“If he does break up with you, you have five guys willing to travel hours just to beat the living crap out of him. OR you have five guys who are willing to drop anything and comfort you. Although I am pretty sure all five of us prefer the first option.” I pulled away from Louis as I heard Liam, Zayn and Niall enter.

“Alright, lads, we have to get off!” Liam called. Louis followed me into the TV room, where the boys stood, as Harry walked down the stairs. I went over to Niall, who engulfed me in a huge hug.

“You need anything, babe, ANYTHING at all, just give me a ring, yeah?” He murmured in my ear. I nodded and gave him a kiss on the cheek as I turned to Zayn. I could feel the tears building up.

“I love you, don’t forget that. You have my number, yeah?” I nodded into his chest, the tears about to overflow. “Alright then, love.” He pulled away and kissed my forehead. I spun around to face Louis. He looked like he was about to cry, too.

“Remember what I told you yesterday, babe? Anytime you need me at all.” A tear escaped from my eye, staining his t-shirt. He rubbed my back; we were in a hug for a little longer than I had with the others. I reluctantly pulled away and turned to Harry. He smirked down at me, a cocky expression touching his eyes.

“Bye, babe.” He pulled me into a tight hug. For some reason, I felt uncomfortable there. We stood there for like a minute, in an awkward hug, until he leaned into my ear.

“Do me a favor, sweet cheeks.” His voice started to turn serious. The cockiness was washed out, “Remember the Harry from the beach, not the normal Harry.” I was taken aback by his request, but nodded. He pulled back and kissed my nose. I couldn’t look into his eyes, I already had tears streaming down my cheeks. He tried to wipe them away, but I pulled off of him and turned to Liam. I couldn’t take it anymore; I started to full on sob. Liam tugged me into a hug. He rubbed my back.

“Ring me if things get worse with mum, yeah? And our offer still stands; it will always be available to you.” I was shaking from the amount of crying. He stroked the back of my head.

“I love you Liam,” I managed to get out.

“I love you Suze,” he responded. The boys had left the room to give us some privacy. We stood there for a while. After about fifteen minutes, we heard someone come in. It was Zayn.

“I’m really sorry, love.” He patted my back, “But the lads and I need to get going.” I nodded, letting more tears flow. I gave Liam a peck on the cheek and watched him leave. I watched the boys drive off. I waited until they were no longer insight and then I turned towards the kitchen.

Just like always, I was back to being completely, sadly, horribly alone.