Barely alive

A trip back to the past part 11

It was half past seven when we were showed our rooms. Me and Julie shared a bedroom. There was one king side bed and a pull out sofa bed, I took the sofa bed so that my sisters back wouldn't be damaged. It was a brownish-green colour that was pushed against the side of the wall. There were 4 pillows layed out across it that didn't match the sofa bed at all. They were a bright yellow colour that to be honest looked like someone had thrown up on them. In the corner of the room was a small giraffe statue made out of wood. This statue suited the house perfectly. It looked menacingly cruel with a snide smile. It reminded me of him. I quickly snatched the statue up and turned it away. The wall paper was a dark green colour and the floor a beige colour. There was a small TV at the front of the room that took me and Julie 10 minutes and 43 seconds to figure out how to work it. (it was an old TV okay don't judge). Next to the room was a medium sized toilet with a shower, toilet, sink and hand rail. This room was horribly white (ya know the kind of white that stabs you in the face white...no? Just me who thinks that? Okay lets move on...). On the other side of our room was a walk in wardrobe full of clothes and general bits and bobs. And finally my parents room was opposite us. See Charlie we're safe they're right across from us. Yeah because that's helped us in the past.

"Guys come say goodnight!" I heard my dad shout from the living room. Time to put on a brave face. Slowly and cautiously  I walked up the stairs keeping by hand on the smooth rail taking in deep breaths. In, out, in, out. Left, right, left, right.

"Good night everyone" I chimed in as the 'responsible' adults drank beer and chatted about the day out we had planned tomorrow.

"Good night come give us a kiss" Oh god. Okay breath you only have to kiss them on the cheek and you don't have to kiss him. Regrettingly I leaned forwards and kissed my mum and dad on the cheek and I quickly started to walk away when...

"Hey you forgot about Uncle Gareth" My heart stopped. I felt tears pricking at my eyes. I wanted the ground to swallow me up whole and never let me go. I can't do this why is this happening to me? Did I deserve this? I'm not evil I'm not a bad person. Why is this happening? Snap out of it just walk over and get it over with. I plodded along quickly lent down, closed my eyes and...okay it's done. As I walked down stairs I let the tears go. I made no noise. If they heard me they'd ask what's wrong.

Gently I layed down in my bed and closed my eyes. I let the world swallow me up and my mind entered into the darkness...

Authors notes: This is part 3 of this chapter, don't worry there's only one more part of this chapter left to go. Also, thank you so much for reading! Over 200 reads and I know that's small compared to other stories but I'm so happy this story has got this many reads. You're all amazing people thank you and remember never give up.  :)