Kryptid

Chapter 6 : dark thoughts

Alex pov:

Well if I had a dime for every time something fucked up around me , my pockets would be pretty full. I was a tiny bit relieved that my attempts to hide my fear from Isabelle looked successful. Things seemed to be going well. Then I met Luke. I've never met more of an asshole. He seemed like he didn't care about me. He was only interested in my power. Things went well until he told me to use it on Isabelle.  I didn't mean to show her the nightmare. I had just planned to make it appear she wasn't there. Needless to say, it did not work.

I was concentrating on making myself believe that Isabelle knew she wasn't there, every time I used my power I would imagine something happening and make myself believe it. But then I had suddenly remembered the nightmare and I felt my energy drain and I opened my eyes. Isabelle was on her knees gasping, Luke standing behind her looking curious. "I I'm sor ry I I n nightmare" I stuttered out and ran, no stumbled more like it, out of the room.  Her look haunted me. She looked scared. I scared her. "For good reason" the dark voice in my head said. I ran back to my room and when I got there I slammed the door. I didn't bother turning on the light. The corner seemed like a good option. I slumped down in the corner my head resting on my knees. I could feel tears streaming down my face, and I hated myself for it. I had become a quivering coward, always full of fear. "Good" the dark voice pured. I could feel the cuts on my wrists sting, and suddenly I ached to make more.

There was a knock on my door. I didn't answer. The knock came again. I still didn't answer. The door cracked open. The light flicked on. I couldn't see who it was, as my forehead rested on my knees. I heard the door shut. I didn't look up, scared of what I would find. I heard someone walking over to me. "Alex?" I heard Isabelle ask.  I raised my head up. She was looking down on me her face sympathetic. "I'm sorry" I said, in a weak voice. "No Alex don't be" she said, kneeling down beside me. "Can I ask what that was?" She said, her voice gentle. "A nightmare" I said. "Do you get them often?" She asked. I opened my mouth ready to lie and closed it. "Yes. Every night" I said finally. "I'm so sorry" she said. "What was wrong today?" She asked me. "I-I don't know" I said "last night I think I had a panic attack and then I had a nightmare" I replied back. She didn't respond for a long time. "You know you can talk to me right? I mean we can be friends" she said. I nodded. She stood back up. I couldn't help but look at her body. Her legs were perfect. For some reason I couldn't fathom why she was wearing very short shorts. Her t-shirt was skin tight and very fitting for her body. She was gazing down at me with her beautiful blue eyes. Shit now I was growing attached to her. The last time I had a girlfriend it practically ruined my life. "And you don't deserve her. You will hurt her. She won't ever love you." The dark voice, savagely said. I looked away from her, the brief happiness melting away. "You don't have stay here" I said. She looked hurt. "Ok I guess i'll see you later" she said and walked out of the room. I shouldn't let her get close, it would only hurt me in the end I told myself. I got up and turned off the light and climbed into bed. As I pulled the covers up I felt them brush against my cuts. I felt them. It felt like I had gotten them weeks ago, they felt almost completely healed. Before I fell asleep I thought to myself what the fuck did they do to me.

The next two months passed in a blur. I trained with mark, Luke and Isabelle every day. I learned that every time I used my powers for some strange reason my eyes turned pink. Which of course Cameron gave me shit about constantly. Me Cameron and Isabelle became close friends. Although every time Isabelle tried to get close I'd push her away. I didn't deserve her. But she was relentless. I also learned that I healed faster and got muscle faster. I already had hard muscle even only after 2 months. My theory about all of this was what Phoenix had done to me caused this. I got very good with my abilities. Luke told me how to use them but his method didn't work for me so I found my own. He said he had never seen anything like me before. I had 2 more panic attacks throughout this time but these I hid from Isabelle and Cameron as we had been hanging out. Also very subtly I noticed I was getting better at everything. I don't know why but I had better hearing, reflexes and just could process things better. I soon found out that apex had a limitless amount of cash and were very lenient about spending it. When I asked izzy about it she just laughed. I had secretly started calling her izzy for no reason in particular. One day I asked max jokingly if he could get me an Xbox and the newest call of duty. 2 days later I opened the door to my room to find and Xbox 360 hooked up to a flat screen on a new desk in front of my bed. Me and Cameron would often play it and sometimes Isabelle would too.