I think Im bad
The thoughts I think aren't meant to be thought.
Suicide and guns.
Put the pistol to my temple as i whisper my last words
I always loved you but you never saw it
I pulled the trigger as my brain explodes
And my note is played
Till the silence is ringing in his ears.
He tries to keep me from hurting
To keep me alive
Its not good enough
This pain is surreal
Im done with this world
And done with my pain
If I open up to speak
It is my last word of pain within
A single muttered
"Im sorry"
I tried to keep my promise
But I fell into the dark
And I lost
Babe I love you
Keep your promise for me
Live for me
And carry my soul
So I swallowed the pills
And found silver metal
Pressed it and slid it across paper skin
And now im dizzy
And theres red flowing down the drain
Im sorry I wasnt enough
And im sorry I wished these thoughts
I wanted it to end
But now ive got more scars
And im sorry for your loss
When im gone
Dont come to my grave
Dont cry on my headstone
For know theres no more pain
And im with castiel
Im your Guardian Angel
But ive rebelled
And maybe youll see me soon.
I dont want to hurt you
But im dont with this pain
Please just let me go
Im sorry this happened.
And its all my fault
But with a final lie
Now it's done
Suicide and guns.
I love all of you guys. I might discontinue this book. Leave comments if you want me to keep writing.
I will but you guys, please speak up and let me know. Ill let you guys know what I decide by next thursday. Until then ill keep writing.
Stay stong. I love you my beautiful angels. <3
