Things get rough okay
I never wanted you to hurt
I never wanted to lose you
I can't lose you
You're my life and my soul
You're the reason I'm alive
I'm sorry I'm m an asshole
I'm sorry I messed up again
I need you in my life
I Fuck up every time
Let's go back to the start
Relive moments and redo life
Thats not how it works
I wished it was
Sorry for being this way
Sorry for letting you down yet again
Suicidal tendencies within my heart
Suicidal tendencies within my mind
Feelings I can't just drop
Things I keep thinking
You say it gets better
Thats not gonna help
I feel like I'll be this way forever
Sorry for this but
Suicidal tendencies become my actions
Words you say couldn't mean a thing
You say keep fighting
But I've stopped so long ago
Sorry but I've attempted
Not too long ago
And maybe this time it'll work
I hate this life being this way
Sorry for suicidal tendencies
That came true
That will be true
I can't help the way I feel
I don't want to fight
I don't want to think
I'm panicking as I write this
I want it to end
Maybe one day I'll be better
But suicidal tendencies never leave
In the end they're just buried
Beneath thoughts of happiness
