I hate them for bringing you into the dark.
For showing you that there are bad ways to cope.
So as you're smoking, I'm sobbing
I wouldn't be able to handle it if you got hurt.
I hate that you hang out with them and do stupid things with them.
Like what if you're caught?
You'd be locked in juvie
And I'd never see you again.
These thoughts run through my mind And I hate myself for that.
I hate myself for letting you do this.
You may think it's fun but to me it's scary.
What if I lose you?
I can't cope without you..
You're my best friend now and I hate that they're teaching you it's fun this way.
But if you get caught don't expect me to come see you in juvie.
I wouldn't be able to look at you without bursting into tears.
And now I'm sobbing when I should be having fun with J.
I worry about you
And when you do these things it scares me so bad.
I'm sorry if you're reading this
But this is how I feel.
I'm sorry I care too much and I'm sorry that I can't tell you how I feel..
I feel that if I told you not to you'd do it behind my back.
No I'm not mad just upset and hurt
I'm sorry I can't explain to you.
But I know they're your friends
No matter how much I may hate them for bringing you into this .
I feel you'd rather have them then me
And if that's true then I understand.
I just can't sit here while you do these things...
I told you be careful you promised you would.
But with this there's no being careful it's all a risk..
And its full of tears.
Heat break and rage
Hatred at myself.
And the love for you.
