The Unexpected Love

The Fog Is Like A Cage Without A Key

***Leah***

I'm awake. I'm alive. How? 

I slowly opened my eyes and im back in the hospital. 

"Leah, your awake, your alive, thank god" Niall said as he rushed over to me.

"I'm sorry" I said as we held hands. 

"You idiot, i could have lost you" Niall said, worried.

"Niall,  we can't be together anymore. Your fans hate me and i can't feel this way anymore" I said as i let go of Nialls hand. 

"Leah, please, i love you" Niall sad, a tear rolled down his face.

"And i love you too but this is better for both of us" I said.

"Your my best friend" Niall said.

"And i will always be your best friend, just because were not dating doesn't mean we can't be best friends again" I said with a smile on my face. 

Before we could talk anymore, we were interrupted by the nurse coming in. 

"Hi Leah, how are you feeling?" The nurse asked me.

"I'm fine" I said, still staring at Niall.

"Did you know you were depressed?" The nurse asked.

"Yes. I have tried to do this before" I confessed, my eyes didn't move away from Niall.

* * * * 

It was now the afternoon and i got discharged. Niall took me to my mums house, with all my things.

"Oh my god, darling, im so happy to have you home" My mum said as she came out of her house and gave me a hug.

"I missed you mum" I said as i wrapped my arms around her.

"I missed you too, thank you Niall for looking after her" My mum said as her and Niall hugged. 

"Leah, can i have a word before you go in" Niall said as he walked towards me.

"Ill be right in mum" I told my mum before she went inside the house. 

I turned around and faced Niall.

"Leah, im so sorry. I have let you down as a boyfriend and as a best-friend. I should have been there for you and i can't explain how sorry i am that it has ended this way" Niall said as he held my hand, looking at the promise ring.

"Niall, you were perfect, it was just me, i mess everything up that's what i do best. But you will always have me as a best friend and you have kept your promise" I reassured him.

"I don't want anything to change between us" Niall said as he still had my hand.

"Nothing will Niall, you are my best friend and you always will be" I said as i kissed his cheek. 

Me and Niall hugged and then i went inside and Niall drove home. 

* * * * 

It was now 10pm and me and Niall had been texting each other for hours. Nothing had changed, it was just like the old days. 

There is just something about mine and Nialls friendship/relationship that just cant be changed, no matter what we go through. We always get through it together and it makes us stronger. 

He isn't the only guy in the universe but he is the only one that matters to me. 

*Ping, Ping* 1 New Tweet from Niall Horan.

"@NiallOfficial : Guys please, she is my best friend, we are no longer together but she will always be in my life so stop the hate. She has been through enough shit without you lot making it worse. Love Nialler x"

Niall always has my back. 

I re-tweeted and favorited his tweet before logging off. 

Nialler

"You are perfect to me, please don't feel like your nothing because you are my everything. Love Nialler xx"

"Nialler, i love you, you are my everything and im glad you are my best friend. Love Lea xx"

Me and Niall texted for a little longer before we both decided to go to sleep.

I laid in bed, just thinking about everything but mainly Niall. 

Depression is like one big black hole, After it pulls you in, you can't get out. So, you spend countless nights crying yourself to sleep. You spend days in your room. You feel like doing absolutely nothing. Your constantly hoping things will get better, but also wondering if they ever actually will. And the worst part? When you finally start to get happy again, depression pulls you back in. You crash harder than before. 

How do you move on? You just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and god damn it, You refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You cry. You curse. Then you go about the business of living. That's how I've done it. There's no other way.

That's the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as they can see the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to see the end.

 The fog is like a cage without a key.