The Unexpected Love

I Hope I Can Feel Better Soon

Its been a few weeks since Aaron got arrested and i miss him. I might sound stupid and i probably am but i did love him, even though he beat me, he was sweet and sensitive and he only done bad things to protect me and to keep me with him. Ever since i saw him get put into the police car i haven't been able to stop thinking about him.

Everyday now i just lay in bed, i don't move, speak, eat or anything. I just lay there, crying. I know my mum and Niall are getting worried but i just feel numb, all i feel is sadness. Niall has been visiting me twice a day and he lays in bed, cuddling me. But i still don't speak.

I don't feel right, i feel empty, i feel worthless. I just wish this would all go away. I should never had met Aaron. To make matters worse, Aaron was on the telly. Everyone knows hes arrested now and some are happy but most of them are angry. And well, the One Direction fans hate me because Niall took me home that day.

I roll over and reach out for my phone. I go onto twitter and see what people are saying about me.

I scroll down a few tweets and then i find some.

"That Leah girl who got Aaron arrested is an idiot, she should be arrested not Aaron" One tweet said.

"That girl just wants attention, please die" Another one said.

"Why would Niall get involved with that girl, she's 1. Not attractive and 2. a psycho" The tweets just kept coming and coming.

I started to cry some more even though i thought i had run out of tears. I threw my phone across the room and went into the bathroom.

I stared at myself in the mirror for a good 10 minutes. I just stared. I looked at my face, my hair and my body. I hated myself.

"Are you okay in there sweetie?" My mum asked, from outside the bathroom.

"Yeah, im having a bath" I said as i started to run a bath.

* * * *

I had been in the bath now for 30 minutes, i had washed my body and hair. I laid in the bath relaxing, i went under water and stayed there for a little before coming back up, gasping for air.

I started to shave my legs and accidentally cut my self, i felt the pain it gave me. It reminded me of the pain Aaron gave me.

I moved the razor and rested it on my wrist. I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and then cut myself.

I let out a few tears but it was the only thing i had to feel normal. I actually felt something instead of feeling numb.

I cut some more until i had done most of my wrist.

I dropped the razor out of the bath and laid back in the water and closed my eyes.

* * * *

I had been laying in the water now for 15 minutes, blood still coming out of my wrist and i felt dizzy.

I heard someone calling my name but i wasn't sure who.

"LEAH, LEAH" Someone shouted.

I was semi-conscious and i saw the bathroom door fly open and someone came rushing towards me.

"LEAH, CAN YOU HEAR ME? ITS NIALLER, IM HERE" Niall said as he held me up and rested my head on his shoulder.

I couldn't see straight, i closed my eyes.

* * * *

I woke up, slowly. I was in hospital, i had a drip attached to me. Niall was sitting in the chair in the corner.

"Leah, what were you thinking, you stupid idiot" Niall said while walking towards me.

"Where am i?" I said, still tired and dizzy.

"Your in hospital. You cut your wrists and you lost a lot of blood and that's probably the reason your so tired and dizzy" Niall said as he cuddled me and brushed his fingers through my hair.

I looked down at my wrist, it was all bandaged up.

"Leah, why do this to yourself?" Niall asked me.

"I felt worthless, i feel numb, this was the only thing that made me feel anything. I get so much hate i start to believe it. Why are you here anyway? you shouldn't be friends with me, im just a stupid idiot, i deserve to die" I said as i rested my head on his shoulder.

"Don't you dare say that! You are worth everything to me, you are my best friend and i love you. Forget the hate and focus on the positive, you have people around you who love you and would do anything to keep you here in this life" Niall said and as he said it, i let out a few tears.

"Niall, I love you" I said as i laid my head back on my pillow.

"I love you too" Niall said as he kissed my hand.

Niall had to go and i had to stay the night in hospital but he promised he would come and see me tomorrow. What have i done? I hope i can feel better soon.