Raphael x reader

Chapter 13

Raphael knows he's acting out as he once again skips out on his brothers and goes up to the surface. He knows he's being difficult and worrying them and sensei (and his Y/n). And there goes his brain again. Before Raph knows it his feet have carried him to the building across from your apartment. He sits down in the shadows on the roof where he could see the window to your room. He did this often. Too often, Raphael thinks. But he can't stay away, no matter how hard he is tying to ignore his feelings and thoughts swirling in his mind like a crazy whirlwind of emotions.

'I shouldn't be here.' Raphael thinks. But he couldn't keep away from you.

It's late when Raphael sees the light in the bedroom window go off. You had gone to bed. Raph debated what he would do next, but decided to just go back to the lair. He figured his brothers and sensei were asleep by now, so he could sneak in unnoticed.

Of course, Raphael had figured wrong when he assumed his family would be in bed. The moment he takes a step into his home master Splinter stands in front of him. He didn't look happy as he gestured they'd talk in the Dojo.

Donnie Mikey and Leo watch from the sidelines as Raphael gets dragged to the dojo by master Splinter. He wasn't even trying to resist.

"Jeez Raphie looks totally out of it." Mikey says.

"This isn't like Raphael." Leonardo speaks up. "We have to do something. Lets find out exactly what is going on with him."

"I'll go talk to Y/n, maybe she knows something." Donnie offers.

"Good idea. We'll go see what master Splinter has to say." Mikey quips up.

"You mean eavesdrop." Leo says.

"I like spying more. I mean, we are ninjas guys." Mikey says, earning an eye-roll.

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"Ungh! I can't take it any more! What do I have to do for Raph to get that I like him!" You yell out in frustration as you let yourself fall on your bed, smothering a pillow between your arms.
It's been almost a week since you've duked it out with the Purple Dragons in your first ever fight(And the almost kiss!). And ever since that night, Raphael has been avoiding you like the plague. Whenever you walk into a room Raph sneaks out, skips if his brothers come visit on patrol, he doesn't even respond to your texts!

"You've done it now, Y/n... I've made him angry with me..." Tears start welling up in your eyes as you squeeze your pillow closer to your chest.

Knocking on your window snapped you out of your self loathing long enough to answer.

"Yeah? C'min. S' not locked."  You didn't want anyone to see the mess you are, but you're not one to turn down your friends. Who knows, maybe it was Mikey and he could cheer you up with a few rounds of Mortal Combat.

To your surprise, Donatello climbs through your window. Even though you think he's really nice, you've never actually hung out with the purple cladded turtle alone. You are wondering what he's doing here.

"Hey Y/n." Donnie greets you. He then notices your tears. "Oh! What happened? Are you alright?"

You sniffle and your voice cracks as you say, barely above a whisper. "I've screwed up so bad...what if he doesn't like me any more?"

"Ah, boyfriend trouble? Maybe I can help." Donnie smiles at you as he sits down on the edge of your bed. His voice is so kind and calm, such a huge contrast from the roughness Raphael talks with.

"He...He isn't my boyfriend." You explain while fresh tears well up. "I tried to show him how I feel, b-but I don't think he fe-feels the same." You hiccuped. "And now he's ignoring me and he hates me and I'm so dumb!" You bury your head in your pillow. "An' we used to be pretty close y'know?" Donnie just nods. "At least I thought so... M-maybe he thinks I'm too weak, or...or maybe he doesn't like me because I'm not-" You stop yourself. Are you going to tell Donatello that you're talking about his hard ass big brother? You wonder if he'd even understand your feelings, since he usually only seems to care about his science projects. Then again, he does seem very close to April. Perhaps the purple cladded turtle would be the closest one to get your situation.

"That you're not what?" Donnie pressed gently.

"T-that I'm not...w-well.. A turtle?" You managed to stutter out.

"Wh...who?" Like Donnie even needed to ask, it was glaringly obvious now he thinks about it.

"Raphael." You say in a small voice, avoiding Don's eyes.

So this is what had been bothering his brother.

"You know, I also have a crush." Donnie admits after a moment of silence.

"Really? who?" You wipe your tears and look up to the turtle sitting in front of you.

"April." (Donnie, you have been falling for every freaking girl you meet damn it.)

"I'm kind of reluctant to tell her because you know...I'm not a human. And I have no idea how she feels."

You think about it for a moment. "Well...See it this way. Right now you already have no, yeah? But if you ask, you'll at least have a chance it'll be yes. Besides, isn't it better to know how she feels, so you can put the thought behind you?"

"Maybe you should follow your own advice." Donnie smiles.

You sigh. "I already tried. That's what got me in this mess in the first place."

Don shakes his head. "You have to be very specific with my brother, he won't get hints. Tell him directly how you feel. Use small words and direct action."

"But he doesn't even wanna see me."

"Trust me, he does." Donatello assures you.

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Master Splinter was getting worried about his son. Raphael had hardly eaten or slept in days and it was beginning to affect him. Splinter needed to do something about it, or Raphael might endanger himself, or others.

"Raphael. You have not been yourself lately, and I am growing concerned about your behaviour." Master Splinter begins as they are both seated in the Dojo.

"I'm fine." Raphael cuts in.

"You are clearly not. What is bothering you, my son?"

Raphael stays silent.

"Is it Y/n? Did something happen?" Master Splinter asks.

"No! Nothing happened! Nothing will ever happen between us!" Raphael snaps, jumping on his feet.

Master Splinter hums in thought.

"You are in love with her."

Raphael's eyes widen, before he sighs sadly. "I-I can't tell her Master Splinter." Raphael slumps back on the ground in defeat.
"I'll ruin everything."

"My son, these thoughts and feelings will not leave on their own. You have to decide which hurts less: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had. Right now, you are only pushing her away."

"I...I have ta tell her." Raph says.

"HA I KNEW IT!" An exited voice calls from above master Splinter and Raphael. They look up to see Mikey and Leo hiding on the ceiling.

"My sons, it is not polite to eavesdrop." Master Splinter scolds the two turtles.

"I'm sorry master Splinter, we were just worried about Raphael." Leo admits after dropping down.

"I don't need you spying on me again fearless." Raphael growls.

"Dude, you do know I'm never letting you live this down." Mikey interrupts, slinging an arm around Raphael and poking his brothers cheek with the other hand. "You're adorable when you're in looove."

"Mikey I am warning you for the last time." Raph growls.

"Raphie and Y/n sitting in a tree K.I.S.S.I.N- WHAGH!"