They Don't Know About Us

Life is Tiring

"ZAYN GET UP THE BABY IS CRYING!" Louis screeched from downstairs. I groaned, and got up. I glanced at the clock to see that it was only 8 in the morning. I've had only about two full hours of sleep. I heard Mason's screams in the background. I trudged over to Mason's crib and pulled him out. Mason screams started to die down.

"Shh..." I whispered to Mason, "Don't cry..."

Mason stopped crying, but was now awake. I guess I better feed him. I carried the baby downstairs. All four of the boys were downstairs. They also looked exhausted.

"When are you getting an apartment?" Niall asked, groggily. I shrugged, "I don't know... Maybe once I have time to find one."

"How about today?" Harry suggested, "We will even watch Mason for you!"

"Okay, but I think it's better if he's here with all of us," I replied, "If something happens to him, when I'm asleep? I might not wake up in time and I'll find him dead!"

"Calm down, Zayn," Harry replied, "Why don't you just stay here with Mason until you're sure you know how to take care of Mason correctly."

"Harry!" Niall exclaimed. I grinned, "Sounds good Harry!"

Niall groaned, "We'll have to hear a baby screaming every night?"

"Pretty much," I replied. I carried Mason over to the kitchen. There was leftover baby formula from last night, so I just heated it up, and fed it to Mason. He finished the bottle up within a matter of minutes. I walked back over to the couch, with Mason still in my arms. I collapsed on the couch, exhausted.

"How much sleep did you get last night?" Liam asked me. I shrugged, "All together about three hours."

"Why don't you get some sleep and we take care of the baby?" Liam suggested.

"You sure?" I asked. Liam nodded, "Yeah. Besides, you need more sleep then us." Liam replied. I grinned, "Thanks."

I handed Mason to Liam and walked up to my room. I sat on the edge of my bed. I was about to go to sleep, when something caught my eye.

I looked to the right to see my side table. Resting on top of it was a picture frame, with a picture of Rachel and I together in it.

I felt the tears coming again. Whenever I think of her, I begin crying again. I thought Mason would be able to completely distract me from her, but I was wrong. I can't ever forget her.

I hid my face in my hands, and sobbed. Why is this so hard? I have to be a single Father, and take care of my own son. Will I really be able to handle this big responsibility?

I sighed, and collapsed on my bed, still crying. God, I miss her so much... Why did this have to happen?

I sat up again, and pushed open the drawer to my side table. Inside it there were only a few contents. In the center I found what I was searching for. I saw a pack of cigarettes.

No! I can't do this! I know I'm stressed, but I'm not going back to that bad habit!

Then, my mind wavered back to Rachel. The urge came back. I snatched the pack out of the drawer and quickly pulled out one. I shoved open my window, so the smoke wouldn't get trapped in my room. My hand snatched the lighter from the drawer. A small flame was created, and I places the cigarette against it, instantly lighting it.

I felt somewhat calm when I smoked, like the fumes were calming me. I just want all my problems to simply wash away by the smoke.

"Hey Zayn Mason needs-" I heard Niall say, but stop when he saw me. I instantly brought the cigarette away from my mouth. I saw that Niall was holding Mason.

"GUYS-" Niall began, but I jumped up and covered his mouth, so the noise from his mouth had stopped. Unfortunately, They had heard him. The other three lads had rushed upstairs.

"Niall, what is-" Harry began, but instantly stopped when he saw the cigarette in my hand. The room fell silent. Niall was the first to speak up, "How could you, Zayn?!" Niall yelled, that caused Mason to start screaming, "I'm taking your son away from this smoke. You guys talk to him," Niall commanded, walking out of the room.

"Why Zayn?" Liam asked. My gaze fell to the ground, "I-I miss her..." I whispered. I felt a few warm tears rolling down my cheek.

"How will smoking help?" Louis asked, "It doesn't help a thing."

"Plus it's really bad for babies," Liam replied, "Cigarette smoke can actually kill babies! How could you put your own son's life in danger!"

I felt more tears falling, "I-I'm sorry... I didn't think of that..." I mumbled. I felt someone put their hand on my shoulder, "Just, don't do it ever again."

I sighed, "Fine... But how will I get over Rachel?"

Louis frowned, "Do you think you can really just get over her? It doesn't work that way. You'll always remember her. You just need to accept that it's okay to cry."

I broke down on my bed sobbing, "I-I miss h-her so m-much..." I whispered. Liam sighed, "I know...."

"I should probably go check on Mason," I said, starting to stand up. Louis stopped me, "No, you need more sleep. Just go back to bed. You're really stressed out, it will be good for you."

"I guess..." I replied. I put the cigarette out and threw it away. I laid down on my bed, and Liam, Louis, and Harry left. I closed my eyes and fell asleep

*

*Niall's P.O.V.*

Liam, Louis, and Harry walked back downstairs, as I was playing with Mason. Looking at him almost made me want my own son.

"Hey, is it okay if you guys take care of Mason for a little? I want to go visit Nicole at the hospital." I told them. Harry nodded, "Sure."

I picked Mason up and handed him to Harry. I threw on a pair of shoes and a sweatshirt. I grabbed my keys and headed out of the house.

*

I arrived at the hospital in a couple minutes. I got out of the car and walked into the hospital. I walked towards the waiting room. I saw Ella sitting at one of the plastic chairs.

Her face lit up when she saw me, "Niall!" She exclaimed. I smiled when I saw her. She got up from the chair, and ran over to me. She threw her arms around my waist, hugging me, and I hugged back. We let go after a couple seconds.

"How's your sister, Ella?" I asked.

"She's actually doing better!" Ella exclaimed happily, "Her surgery is done and the doctor said she's getting better."

I grinned, "That's great!" I exclaimed. I led her over to the chairs, where we could sit and talk.

"What about your girlfriend?" Ella asked, "Is she awake yet?"

I sadly shook my head, "Not yet, but I realized how fortunate I am. She's in a coma, but at least she's not dead. A day ago, my band mate's girlfriend died..."

"How?" Ella asked curiously.

"She died giving birth," I replied, sadly.

"Did the baby live?" She asked. I nodded, "Yeah, he has a son now."

"What does the baby look like?" Ella asked.

"I think I have a picture. I can show you that," I replied. I pulled out my phone. I scrolled through my pictures and pulled up the one of Mason. I showed the picture to Ella.

"Awww!" She exclaimed, "He's so cute!"

"Well, I probably should visit my girlfriend," I told her, "I have to go home soon so I can help take care of the baby."

Ella got up and threw he arms around me, "I hope to see you soon, Niall!" She cheerfully exclaimed. She let go and we waved good bye. I headed over to Nicole's room.

I pushed open the door and walked in. I walked over to Nicole's bed side, and looked down at her.

I pray to God that she soon wakes up. I don't want to lose her like how Zayn lost Rachel. I want to live with her forever. I don't want her to ever leave my side. What if I will never be able to tell her that? I want to show her that I love her.

Then, it hit me. I know how I will tell her I love her when she wakes up. I know what to do now!

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We'll Im going to update later again tonight because I still have to do homework and watch American horror Story. IT STARTS AGAIN TONIGHT AND IM SOOO EXCITED!
A lot of you have been wondering if there will be a third book.. Yes, there will be a third book called 'Scarred'. There are still two chapters left if They Don't Know about Us, and I'm going to post one more tonight after this and then keep you guys waiting until tomorrow for the last chapter(; Haha, I'm evil(: Okay, well, comment, follow, and fave! Bye lovelies! -Madison