They Don't Know About Us

Worthless

Niall stared at me for a second, a look of confusion and fear in his eyes. He looked at me like he was at a loss for words. He saw the tears slipping from my eyes, so he slipped from his trance, "S-Someone raped you?" Niall whispered, his voice scared and low. I weakly nodded, my body was still weak from what happened to me.

"W-Who did it?" He asked me.

"The s-stalker man," I stuttered. I felt a few tears roll down my cheek.

"Stalker man?" Niall asked, confused. He kept his voice low, so he wouldn't scare me. I was already weak, and one small thing could push me off the edge.

"H-He's the one who tried to drown m-me," I told him, my voice still shaky, "He's the one who sent me the note. He's the one that was in my room at night. H-He's the one who called me. He's the o-one in my room when we were on the b-beach. He's been stalking me."

Niall's eyes grew wide when he put together all the pieces. I should've seen this coming. The man had given me all the clues, but I simply pushed them aside. I let a stranger violate me, and he got away with it. I'm to weak to even prevent a guy from raping me. Why am I so useless? I let out a few choked sobs as I buried my face into the covers on top of my bed. I remember seeing the man's eyes fill with pleasure as he tortured me. My body is in so much pain from the forced sex. I want to curl up and hide away from the world. I don't want people to stare at my worthless, used body anymore. I feel so disgusting, Niall shouldn't even have to look at me.

I felt Niall's arms trying to pull me close to him. No, I don't want him to have to touch my dirty body, "D-Don't touch me," I whispered. Niall looked hurt, but let go of me.

"W-Why can't I hold you?" Niall softly asked me. He was talking to me like I was a child. He didn't want to scare me. He didn't want me to run away from him, and never return.

"My body is disgusting," I whispered the words, my voice had a hating tone towards myself. Niall shook his head, "No, that wasn't your fault."

"T-Then, why wasn't I able to prevent him from doing that?" I cried.

"You aren't strong enough-" Niall began, but I interrupted, "Then when will I be able to protect myself? I'm so worthless. I always have to have someone helping me," My words spat out like I was trying to get rid of a nasty taste in my mouth.

"And, why is that bad?" Niall asked. I looked up at him, confused. He continued, "I want to be there for you. I want to protect you. I love you, and I always want to be by your side. Protecting you is just a bonus for me. Don't feel worthless, because you are not... He was just too much for you. You need to understand that none of that was your fault."

I weakly nodded, taking in Niall's words.

"I'm going to help find where that son of a bitch went," Niall said, "I'll be back in a minute."

I grabbed his arm, holding him back. My hand had a tight grip on his arm. My hands were still trembling, but I wouldn't let go of Niall. I looked up into Niall's eyes, and he looked in mine with a look of confusion. I felt warm tears slowly rolling down my cheeks, and sliding off my face.

"P-Please don't l-leave me," I whispered. He saw my frightened expression, and slowly turned back around, and sat beside me again. He stroked my hair, and rested my head on his lap. My breathing was shaky as I cried. Niall whispered comforting words into my ear. He comforted me, trying to calm me down. I noticed what I was wearing, and quickly sat up.

"What is it?" Niall asked me.

"I need to change," I replied, "Stay here," I commanded. Niall sat on the bed, and I stood up. I grabbed an outfit from my suitcase, and walked into the bathroom. I closed the door behind me, but didn't lock it. I wanted Niall to be able to come in if something happens. I pulled off my suitcase so I was now naked. I slipped on my bra and underwear. I slipped a cami over my bra. I turned around to grab my comb, but yelped when I saw the mirror. Written in red marker was the word: Bitch. I heard the door open, exposing a frantic-looking Niall, "What is it?" He asked. I pointed to the mirror. Niall gasped when he saw the word.

"H-He's still here," I whispered, my voice shaky.

"Shit... How the hell did he get in here?" Niall mumbled under his breath. I saw him glance over at me, and his face turned red.

"What is it?" I asked.

"U-Um, well, you're barely wearing any clothes," Niall stuttered. I looked down noticing I was only wearing underwear and a cami. I quickly grabbed my shorts and threw them over my underwear.

"Well, now we're even," Niall joked, "We've both seen each other in our underwear."

"What should we do?" I asked, ignoring the joke.

"Well, I was just on the phone with Liam, he says he was going to talk to the captain of the ship about the problem.... Um, actually I'm still on the phone with Liam, so I should probably continue talking to him," Niall walked back to my room. I followed behind. He picked up his phone, and started talking to Liam again. I laid on top of my bed, and curled up in a ball. Niall sat beside me, and continued talking to Liam.

"Okay, so just come here, and I can talk to him," Niall hung up the phone, and shoved it in his pocket.

"W-What is it?" I asked Niall.

"Liam is just coming over and the captain also wants to talk to me about what happened," Niall told me. I nodded, and laid curled up on a bed for a few minutes, while Niall sat silently beside me. After a few minutes, I broke the silence, "W-What if he comes back?"

Niall scooted closer to me, and rubbed my back, "You'll be okay, because I'm here to protect you. I promise to always be here for you."

Suddenly, there was a knock on the door.

"It's open!" Niall called, and I saw Liam walk in. Niall walked over to Liam, and they started talking quietly. I couldn't hear them, which was probably a good thing. Then, I saw Niall walk out of the room. My eyes grew wide, and a sudden feeling of intense fear overwhelmed me. Liam walked over to me, "You okay?" He asked, when he saw my scared expression.

"W-Where's Niall going?" I asked, nervously.

"He's going to talk to the captain about what happened. I assumed you wouldn't-" Liam began, but I interrupted him, "He has to come back!" Liam looked really confused, "Why?"

"B-Because he promised to protect me!" I cried. I felt a few tears slip from my eyes. Liam was now nervous. He had no idea why I was crying or what to do, "U-Um, well, he's coming back in a few minutes. You don't need to cry."

"H-He's going to k-kill m-me!" I whispered. Liam walked over to me, "Please don't cry!" Liam begged. I didn't say anything. I curled my knees up to my chest, and wrapped my arms around my legs. I pressed my face into my knees and sobbed. Liam sat beside me and tried to comfort me. I blocked out his words. Liam set his hand on my back. My body started trembling immensly, and I pulled myself away from his touch. His touch reminded me of the scary man. I'm scared that someone will try to hurt me again. I can't trust anyone, but Niall. Liam tried to talk to me, but I completely ignored him. I wanted Niall to come back. Without him, I feel like I could get hurt any moment. Niall was always protective and made me feel safe. I need him by my side.

My sobbing ceased when I heard the door open. I turned to see Niall in the doorway. Liam looked relieved. Niall frowned, "Did I miss something?"

Liam stood up, and started talking to Niall quietly again. I felt like a little child who couldn't join in the adult's conversation. I was weak and worthless. When Niall and Liam stopped talking, Liam left, and Niall walked back over to me. He sat beside me, and looked into my eyes, "Why did you start crying and ignoring Liam when I left?"

I'm sure he knew the answer, but wanted to hear it from me, "Y-You promised to protect me," I whispered, "So I feel safest when I'm with you."

Niall pulled me close. I squeezed my eyes closed, trying to prevent the threatening tears from spilling over. Niall wrapped his arms around my frail body, and his head leaned close to my ear, "You don't have to prevent yourself from crying, baby."

I pressed my face into his T-shirt, and started sobbing. He wrapped his arms tightly around me, and I wrapped my arms around him. He held me close, like he didn't want anyone but him to touch me. The sobbing caused me to become exhausted, and I fell asleep, sobbing, in Niall's arms.
I woke up screaming. I felt Niall jump up, he must've been sleeping before, "What happened?!" He asked, frantically. I had woken up from a nightmare, where the rape repeated in my mind. It was horrible, and I couldn't stand to watch it anymore. I saw Niall's facial features relax when he realized I had just woken up, "Did you have a nightmare?" He asked me, kindly. I nodded, my face in his chest.

"Shh...." He whispered, "I'm here for you. Just go back to sleep..."

I closed my eyes again, and slowly fell asleep again.

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I will probably update later tonight. Can you guys believe this happened to Nicole? I know you didn't see it coming, haha(:
Anyways, y'all know what to do! Xoxoxo- Madison