200 days with you [ jesse eisenberg x reader]

day 71 \\ comforting you

It was late cold evening , you were laying in the bed, holding pillow between your arms and waiting Jesse to come from theatre. You've had a headache.'Today was a rough day' you thought. Today was a day that you want less in your life.

As any living being lived in community, you've faced depression,anxiety and fear of being not good enough. Sometimes it fulfills you and you just can't be productive. But still it's natural. Jesse always tells you that being sad is okay, but at the same time he always trying to make you smile. The worst in that is that sometimes negative thoughts can cause physical pain. It happens not often with you, but when it happens you regret about your existence.

You felt that someone was behind you, you knew that it was Jesse, but you were too tired to open your eyes. It was like you were half awake, half sleeping. But when you felt warm kiss on your shoulder, you finally woke up. Jesse noticed that and gently went though your hair with his hand. You looked at him and smiled.
" Rough day?" He asked.
" I'm just tired" you whispered.
" I can see that, but there is something else" he started stroking your cheek "Tell me, what is it? You never tell me if something is bothering you"
" I don't want to bother you"
" Silly" he gently poked your nose, smiling " You are silly. You take care of me, I take care of you. That's what relationships mean. At least, ours, I believe."
" It's true" you smiled looking at his blue eyes. He was watching at you, trying to understand what was bothering you.
" Tell me, love"
" I'm just overwhelmed by events what is happening now." you took his right hand and started warming it, watching on it. You tried to hide your eyes "It feels like... I can't do creative stuff anymore. Like all my creativity wound up. Everything I've done recently is.... pretty much... it's awful. And I'm starting to feel that everything I do is... pointless; is... bad. I feel that I'm becoming pointless."
He was still stroking your cheek and nerviously biting his lower lip.
" And... It's like... it kills me"
He leaned to you closer and cupped your face in his hands, making you look at him.
" You are not pointless. And you never will be. You are just tired, but it's okay. It will get better."
You smiled,looking at him.
" And also, I think that you are the most beautiful and creative person I've ever met. I've met different people, but noone like you. For me - you are special. All that positive vibes you share with me, with world...You never will be pointless."
You felt that you are crying.
" What? Why are you crying,love?" he looked confused.
"Noone told me such words before" Jesse smiled and kissed your forehead. You smiled.
" You deserve much more than that words, Y/N. And now... give me 20 minutes and I'll make you best drink ever. Just 20 minutes, and then we'll make you happier. Okay?"
" Okay" he smiled and poked your nose again.

Later on, Jesse was back with two big cups of tea. That tea tasted different but very nice. It was sweet and not too hot. You felt that there is something unusual in it and asked Jesse what is it. He said that he'll never tell you how he did it. And then whispered on your ear:" The secret ingridient is my love, actually". Then you poked his nose and laughed. To the rest of the night he was holding your hand.

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