Today I received flowers. They were big, a very expensive looking arrangement with lilies and roses, peonies and tulips, crystal blancas and lilacs and hyacinths. Pink, white and green. They were in a fish bowl type of vase. They were beautiful, the fragrance was beautiful.
“Well are you going to take them?” the Asian guy asked looking bored. I was holding the door open with my mouth gaping open. Amelia appeared and grabbed them off the guy.
“Thanks,” she said quickly as she walked back into the house. “There’s a card!”
“Hey those are mine!” I complained as she took the card.
“Hope,” she read out. “I can’t explain to you how much I miss you. I wish you were here. I miss the kids too. I’m sorry for lying and I’m sorry for being involved in the accident. I’m sorry for being the reason the accident occurred. I’m sorry I caused you so much pain. I love you always. Louis.”
“Thanks Amelia, for invading my personal privacy,” I said sarcastically.
“Like I wouldn’t have read it anyways,” she rolled her eyes, “So what are you going to do?”
“A big vase of flowers and a note isn’t going to change much,” I told her walking to my bedroom to read so I could get my mind off of Louis. I had decided to start the Mortal Instrument series a few days before and I sat on my bed with a highlighter at the ready to highlight any good quotes. I was already halfway through the book.
As I read I found myself constantly having to re-read paragraphs because I would read but my mind would be focusing on Louis so the words I was reading were like background noise. A distant hum of noise whilst Louis was blaring in my thoughts.
I wanted to hate him. I should hate him but I didn’t. Amelia was right I didn’t only lose Jake in that accident. I lost Anna too. The grave that was next to Jake’s but I blankly ignored because it was too much to know she was six feet under. Jake was one thing, but Anna, dead. I’d never been able to handle that so I pretended she never existed. And it became easier and easier as time went on but I couldn’t do it anymore so I put my book on the side table and wept like a child.
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Jade wanted to talk so we know sat outside at my outdoor glass table and matching chairs set with two cups of coffee. I admired her dark tone of skin, my skin didn’t even get close to that colour unless I spent a few months in Greece.
“Perrie wishes you had decided to go on tour with them,” Jade started the conversation taking a sip of coffee.
“I just couldn’t,” I said closing my eyes and breathing deeply. “There’s something you don’t understand. I can’t just forgive him.”
“Why not?”
“Because he was my husband! I loved him so much and after he died I was never the same until Louis came.”
“Butt if Louis fixed you isn’t that debt paid?” Jade asked. Debt paid? I asked myself and I laughed.
“No!” I said. “I lost two people in that accident! And they’ll never come back! We were meant to be a family!”
“Two people?” Jade asked confused cocking her head. I sighed.
“I’ll be back in two seconds,” I told her, I scraped the chair against the concrete as I pushed it back to get up. I strolled into the house bunching up my black maxi skirt so I wouldn’t trip.
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Happy Hope (Book Two)
FanfictionHope lost her man three years ago leaving her devastated. Ever since then she hasn't been completely happy but can Louis Tomlinson change that? Can he accept she comes with a package? Will she be ready to love again? Three years is a long time but i...