never be hard to find

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Isaac P.OV

The sound of my door bell echoing in my home woke me up from my slumber, i blinked my eyes open, taking in my surroundings. Lisa and i had stayed up most of the night talking and i guess we had lost track of time. She groaned quietly and shifted herself from my bare chest onto one of the pillows near by. The door bell continued to ring as i threw on my pajama pants, confusion and an uneasy feeling settling in my gut. We usually did not get frantic visitors like this so early in the morning. I grabbed my phone from where it laid on the nightstand and walked towards the front door, my phone was filled by missed calls from stiles & scott and some texts from lydia asking about my whereabouts. I feared they had been attacked or something evil had finally arrived at beacon hills again.

I reached to unlock the door, before i knew it stiles was bursting into my home, eyes blood shot red as if he had only slept for seconds, his whole demeanor shaking, immediately knowing something was wrong. He fidgeted in place, which he only did when he was nervous. "What is going on?" i asked, my voice booming through the living room "i-uhm-we- uhm" he stumbled over his words, my eyes moved around the room, i dreaded bad news and i knew they were really bad. "I received a call from my dad this morning" he began, lisa slipped into the room, confusion written all over her face at the sight of stiles.

"Babe, what is going on" she hugged her cardigan over her night gown, stiles looked over at her and then back at me "they found amber in the river....unconscious". I stood still, everything around me slowing down, my chest heavy and i felt the panic creeping up my legs. I looked over at lisa, her hair flying in the air as she stormed into our bedroom, leaving stiles to look at me like a lost child. "Wh-where?" i asked. "She is at the hospital now but she hasn't woken up, she has little to no brain activity" my eyes flashed yellow , the danger of loosing amber had never been so close before. In many ways, in my mind i was always prepared to get her back, she was always mine.

There was something a werewolf could never do though and that was beat death.

"Who did this to her!" i growled, maybe her ex husband, maybe her father, my mind raced with ideas, i wanted to go and demolish the whole world, find who did this to her and kill them with my bare hands, i was no killer but for amber i would transform into the biggest beast.

"No isaac" he looked down at his hands "they reviewed the cameras from the bridge and uhm she threw herself" i froze, he finally looked back at me. I felt ashamed, I felt guilty. I grabbed my car keys and headed out the door. There was no one else to blame but me. This was already on me, I was responsible for protecting her and lately all I was trying to do was forget her. The drive to the hospital felt like eternity, the ache in my chest never relieved and in some sense I deserved that pain, I deserved the pain she must have felt.

I cant remember the walk into the hospital or how we got into her room, all I know is that Scott's mother led the way. Reality hit me like a semi truck as I saw her lying there. Pale, lifeless, connected to all sorts of machines. One to keep her blood pumping, one to nourish her, another to keep her oxygen levels, one more to monitor her heart Scott's mom had said. I sat down by her side and brushed my fingers against her hands, chills running through my body as I felt her agony.

"Why" i muttered, i ran my hands through her damp hair, bruises and cuts decorating her face, the only color left in her body. Amber was strong, shit she was beyond strong, she had dealt with so much shit, so many misfortunes, she took all of it and made the best of it, I admired her. This person laying on this bed, i barely recognized. I had turned her weak, this was all my fault. Had I gone to look for her and not stayed in this town like a coward, maybe we would be happy today. Maybe she wouldn't have to feel like her life was worthless, she meant the whole entire world to me but some how i had always thought she was better off without me.

"I need you to wake up amber" i sobbed, into my hands, the overwhelming feeling in my gut had finally lent up and i had been over powered by a sudden rush of sadness, one i could not control if i was ever meant to loose amber it shoulndt be this way. If there was ever a chance in the universe that we did not end up together i didnt want her death to be the reason why.

"I need you to fight baby, i need you to wake up"

The agony was too much, too unbearable and while i sat there succumbed with melancholy and lost, i understood exactly how she felt and it just made me cry more