Danny walked me back into the house and held me while I cried in the hall way I pulled away from him "I'm sorry" I said "you don't have anything to be sorry about" "I spoke to you like shit" "I deserved it I hurt you I shouldn't have said what I did and then walked out on you" "why did you" I asked him "I didn't want to put pressure on you" I nodded and moved out of his arms even though I wanted to stay wrapped in his hug "I need a drink" I told him "ok go sit down I'll put the kettle on" he said "no a proper drink I've not had one for nearly 9 months" "is that such a good idea" he asked "you asked" "ok I'll go to the shop what do you want" he asked "jack Daniels and coke" "Charlie come on its not gonna help" "there's only one way to find out" he shook his head and left he returned 15 minutes later he walked into the kitchen and returned with two glasses "thanks" I said taking one from him we sat in silence "what you thinking about" he asked "nothing" "really" "no" "it must be hard having a baby for someone else" "yeh I guess I mean my body doesn't know he's not mine my heart does its just my hormones I know that I just feel empty" "your bound to even though he's not your baby you've carried him bonded with him its bound to be hard and confusing for you" I looked at him and nodded "I feel guilty for even feeling like this" "you shouldn't you've been through so much give yourself time as you told me earlier you have just given birth" he smirked at me "don't use my words against me" I told him "you walked right into it" he answered back I settled back onto the sofa he turned so he was facing me he was just looking at me "what" I asked him "your beautiful" I blushed "I'm not I'm a mess" "your not" he said stroking my face he moved in to kiss me "danny I can't" he stopped and moved back talking a gulp of his drink his phone started ringing he pulled it out of his pocket I caught sight of the name it was Irma
