The next day we barely said two words to each other I was sat in the conservatory when I felt someone sit down next to me it was danny he passed me a cup of tea "marks talking with glen" he told me I nodded "do you want to talk" he asked I shook my head he just sat back and drank his tea I took a drink of mine "she was perfect" I suddenly said "I bet she was" he said I brushed some tears away he put his arm round me I moved into his arms and sobbed he just held me glen and mark came through glen looked like he'd been crying too they stayed abit longer then left glen joined me "are you hungry" he asked "not really" "you should eat" "I'm fine" "I'll order something" "I said I'm fine will you listen to me" "you can have it later" "I said no fucking listen to me" I shouted at him "I only asked you if you wanted something to eat" "and I said no just leave it leave me alone" "is that what you want" "right now yes" "fine" he said leaving me alone I sat alone for a few hours just thinking things through glen came in with a tea for me "its freezing in here come until the house" "I'm fine" he disappeared and came back with a blanket wrapping it round my shoulders "how can you even look at me" I asked him "what do you mean" "I couldn't keep our baby alive you must hate me" I told him "what Charlie no don't think like that" "why its true you should leave me before I do anymore damage" "none of this is your fault Charlie" "it is this is my punishment for what I did to you" "what are you on about" "when I slept with danny this is my punishment losing the baby" "Charlie no it doesn't work like that she just wasn't meant to be" "I can't be here I should leave before anything else happens" I got up glen followed me "I'm going to book into a hotel" "Charlie stop it now your not going anywhere sit down and talk to me your scaring me" "you should be scared you should get away I'm no good for you" "your the best thing that's ever happened to me Charlie" "your lying Laura was I see the way you looked at her you don't look at me like that I was second to her" "no your wrong Charlie" "I'm not" I grabbed my car keys and got in my car and drove off I managed to drive to Danny's he was stood at the door as I got out the car "what you doing here glen's going out of his mind" "can I stay" "you know you can but you should be with glen" "he hates me I killed our baby he should be with Laura" "Charlie what's going on in that head of yours"he asked "I don't know it hurts so much" "I know it does Charlie but you should be with glen he's going through this as well" "he hates me I can tell" "he doesn't he loves you" "I need a drink" I told him walking over to his bottles picking up the vodka and swigging out the bottle
