One Chicago: Linstead

Chapter 54: You never told me...

"What happened?" Erin asked.

"I'm sorry, Will." Jay started, "can we see her?"

"How is she?" Erin questioned.

"She's... she's upset. Last I saw, she was in tears, this... it's not supposed to be like this. We don't know what happened. It was the first trimester, so the baby could've died for many possible reasons. It's just, I... can you talk to her?"

"Yeah, sure."

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"How you feeling?" Erin asked.

"Sad. I... I just wish I knew why, was it something I did? Was it just supposed to happen that way?" Natalie babbled. "What if it was me not being the best mother I could be. What if I ate something I shouldn't have, what if it was me, what if I'm the cause?"

"Nat. Don't." Erin started. "It's not your fault. You did not eat something you shouldn't have, for pete's sake, you're a doctor! It isn't your fault. It just wasn't meant to be. It's okay if you feel sad, upset, depressed. It's normal. Just don't let this tear your relationship apart." Erin stated.

"So..." Natalie sniffled, "did you and Jay talk?"

"Yeah."

"What happened there?" Natalie asked.

"I don't wanna talk about it." Erin sighed.

"Seriously, I'm in a hospital bed and you don't wanna talk about a simple conversation?"

"Well, I told him how I felt. He told me it was his fault that the 8 men that died during the period they were gone was his fault. He told me that he wanted to kill himself. I told him that we still had our future and our kids' future. It went on and on, and I told him I wanted children, more children. And he said he wanted some, too. So everything is good. But, I won't have any more children until you do, so you guys better have lots of sex." Erin stated. "Okay, well now it's awkward. I shouldn't have said it, was it too soon? I guess I'm just a really awkward type of girl."

"Erin. Stop. You have more kids. It'll happen when it's supposed to, just like you said. Same for you too. I'm glad we had this talk. Thanks. I'm gonna take a nap. I'll see you later."

Erin walked out of the room. "Will, she's gonna take a nap, she seems better."

"Thanks, Erin. I wanted you to talk to her because I know you've been through a miscarriage before, too. Thanks for talking to her, really." Will said and walked into the room.

"You had a miscarriage...? You never told me..." Jay started.