Dream Big

Chapter 18: Someday soon

I was up since 3 a.m.  startled and scared. How could I be? I mean I'm not even at school yet. I didn't want to go on my iPad because I don't want to be scarred. But I look around my room and stop tugging on my blanket. I finally get up and look out the window, and I can't help but feel restless and adventurous. Darkness always turn me on and makes me do crazy things. Right there and then, I felt Noah taking over my soul, it felt weird. I just needed to get away from this madness, I open the window and sneak out. I couldn't feel or see a thing which made me more adventurous. I go to the terrible neighbourhood alone and it's surprising me greatly. I wouldn't have ever done this in the day time. I finally find the hideaway somehow, someway. I look around and I see the body bag in the same place, which was weird because everyone would've thought the police took the body bag for investigation. I open the bag and instead of seeing the his eyes open they were closed. I take the whole body out of the body bag and I brush his hair to the side. I finally felt something besides fear for the past few days. I felt, sad and depressed. I also felt a tear coming down my cheeks and I hug him as hard as I can. I took him for granted and now he's gone, I don't think I can bare with myself anymore.m I practically killed him indirectly. I guess they do mean it when they say actions are louder than words and you should be careful of what you say. 

"I'm sorry Noah, I'm sorry for everything. I should've forgave you when I had the chance. I like you too, I was just so ignorant. It was ignorance that took over me, I was just so determined to get back at Heather for stealing Carly from me..... and for stealing you from me. This is all my fault, I won't ask for forgiveness because I know I shall not be forgiven. That's all I have to say and I miss seeing you around. I hope you'll be an archangel all the way up in heaven. Well, that's if you believe in heaven, but I still hope." I say and I keep tugging on him as hard as I can. I keep repeating in my head almost a billion times ' we'll be together'

I got home without being seen, and I sneaked out without mom noticing me. How awesome. I guess I did the right thing because I fell asleep, and I wasn't as scared as before. But I felt so tired when I woke up again, and then I got up finally and got my bag and headed out the door. 

Once I got to school, all eyes are on me. Not surprising, but I'm not used to this, besides why don't people look at Derek? He was on TV yesterday too. I pretend that the stares don't bother me, and I head towards Derek and say "Did everyone stare at you when you came?"

"No, I'm too awesome to stare at."

"But you told more lies than I did. Actually, I didn't even tell a lie."

"I know, but you were always more closer to Noah than I was."

"Did you see what people were saying about me on Instagram? It was so hurtful and made me feel so bad." I look around ant made sure no one was listening to me. "last night, I went to the neighbourhood Noah went to before he got killed. His body is still there."

"Why did you go there? Alone especially."

"I needed to see him before I go to his funeral. Last night felt so real, it was like he was still alive. Derek, I felt his soul inside of mine. I couldn't ignore that."

"I don't care, it's dangerous. A lot of murders happen there, God knows what could've happened to you."

"Nothing happened, look I won't do it again."

"You better not." he says and goes to his line and lines up.