Ang Journal Ng Fangirl Na Mahilig Magdaydream

Entry #8

October 24, 2013

Today... Is the day ... Where Filipino VIPs... Are celebrating... no scratch that... Are remeniscing... Their happiest moment.

The day where Bigbang came to have a concert.

It’s almost a year, yet I cannot forget every moment I had on that concert. How I sang my heart out. How I almost cried. How much I sacrificed for them.

Even if they don’t know that I’m there, or even I exist...

I was there for them. And still here for them.

The mere fact that I saw them – It already gave me happiness.

(Pakthet umiiyak nanaman ako. Lechugas baka mapagkamalan akong buwang dito na umiiyak sa harap ng computer. Ayoko na HAHA >__<)

Ok. How I wish they know me. Oh well, every VIP wishes the same.

Or at least I wish Bigbang will come back.

Like that effin’ Super Junior. Like that effin’ EXO. And effin’ Infinite... who have the guts to come back after having not-so-good experiences here (I wonder if Suju had those “not-so-good experiences.” They looked really cool here... not just cool – I think – pleased here.)

Oh my, I wish they will come back... At least before TOP’s military training, eh?

And do a lot of fanservice, eh?

And be my boyfriend... eh?

Oh yes. A day dream. A day dream again.

Nothing but a day dream. A damned day dream.

That will never, ever come true.

(Ang sakit ng paa ko. Gala kasi ako ng gala kanina. Mula PUP nakarating kaming magkakaklase sa Megamall. Nubayun. HAHAHAHA. Ako kasi pasimuno eh. Mga uto-uto naman sumunod. XD)

I am not crazy. That is my way of protecting my ego. I don’t wanna cry again. T^T

I always don’t want to cry.

This one’s the shortest of all my journals, I think?

I don’t want to daydream a specific scene... And I don’t want to tell my story during their concert here. Mind you guys, this one’s typed in pure English (well except those ego-protecting parentheses in Philippine language) and I think you don’t want to picture me having bloody nostrils, do you?

But at least I wish someone will ask about that. I’ll be more than happy to tell it.

And yes, I wish Bigbang will ask about it too. Someday, maybe...

- Abby-ssi