Goodbye.

Not again please.

I'm standing outside his window of his room. He's laying on top of his bed; just staring at the ceiling. After he broke down the doctors came and took him out to his room. After 30 minutes of crying and screaming in his room wishing he was dead he just layed there silently. A counsellor has been sat in there with him for 10 minutes asking him questions. Josh never replied to one of them... Is this my fault? 

"Rachel it's time for you to take your medication."

Doctor.J came over and placed his hand around my arm to move me away. I shrugged him off and walked over to my room. What if what Josh said was true? What if I only want someone to love so i'm not alone? 

"Rachel sit on your bed."

I layed down on my bed looking up. He grabbed the needled and inserted into my arm. At first I was scared but I've had so many needles in my arm it's just like a small pinch. Doctor.J looked at me through the whole moment. Like he had something to say. But I had nothing to say to him.

"Rachel? Are you okay?"

I had no reply. I didn't want to fall for anyone. Nobody deserved me as I would just use them for myself. 

"Is there something wrong? Anything I can help with?"

He placed his hand on my thigh. I quickly got up and jumped off the bed. His face was surprised.

"Why did you act like that?"

I just looked at him. I didn't want anything to happen. 

"I want us to stop seeing each other."

He got up off the bed, placing the needle on the table. 

"I'm sorry I just wanted to help."

He walked over placing his hand around my hip. I don't know what's wrong with him. I moved backwards; until my back pressed against the wall. He stepped closer until he was right in front of me. 

"Don't be like that."

He moved his head to my ear whispering, he then moved his head down to my neck placing kisses. As he moved down I could smell his breathe. He'd been drinking.

"Doctor... Sto..."

He placed his hand on my mouth. 

"Call me Jay."

He moved further down placing his hands down my hips. I felt so uncomfortable. I didn't know what to do. I quickly pushed him off trying to run out the door. Before I knew it he got up and ran to shut the door, smiling at me. 

"Rach no need to act like this. Why were you always so difficult?"

What does he mean? Why has he all of a sudden started to act like this?

I moved backwards trying to get away from him. 

"Doc.. Er I mean Jay. What did I do?"

He smirked as he got closer.

"How are you so dumb?! I like you Rach. I like you a lot. Ever since I first met you. Then you were at the hospital and I knew it was my chance. I felt bad about what I done to you but then I knew if I got you to like me it would be better; if you remembered what we had, it would feel good again. But then that fucking Josh was there. He had to end up in hospital too. You like him and he likes you. But I can't have that happening can I?"

I walked and landed on the bed. What does he mean what we had? I've never seen him before the I came here.

"I... I don't understand..."

He got angry and raised his voice.

"I'm the dad! Rachel I'm the dad of your child! We can be a family!"

No. He didn't do it... He raped me! That's why Josh never liked him! 

"Please don't. I won't mention anything I promise."

He stood right in front of me on the bed. He leaned down towards me. My heart rate got larger and larger. I was crying and panicking.

"It's not that I don't want you to say anything. It's that I want you."

"Stop... Please.."

I burst out crying. I was starting to scream as he was climbing on top of me as he sat on me. He grabbed my hands and pinned me to the bed.

"No! Get off me! Josh....."

He placed his hand tightly over my mouth keeping me silent. I was muffling through.

"Why do you love him?! What did he do that I haven't?! I'm giving you a family! All he's done is made you cry! You even admitted yourself you wanted a family, to settle down and find the one. Well I'm here in front of you! Were having a baby Rach! Why him?!"

I managed to push him off onto the floor as I got up and went to run off the bed my ankle snapped on the floor. I collapsed and try to crawl away screaming for help. As I was laying on the floor he grabbed me from under the bed and pulled me over. 

"Josh! HELP!"

Not again please!

He placed his knee on my inner thigh. If I moved I would hurt my ankle even more. But I would also strain my leg from him. I kept trying to remove him from me but it just made him madder. I shouted for Josh until he punched me across the face. I felt my nose click as well as my jaw. Blood started trickling down my nose and fill up in my mouth. My face flopped to the side,blood started to dribble down. He lifted my face back up. Everything was going blurry. My heart was becoming stronger and stronger in pain. This time I don't think my body can handle the pain.

"Josh...."

"He's not going to help you!"

I looked at him.

"I love him."

When those 3 words came out of my mouth he grabbed the needle that still had liquid in it and stabbed it into my stomach which made me scream in agony. 

"If I can't have you or this baby. He certainly can't."

I could feel the serum enter my body. I tried to scream until he punched me again. I didn't know what to do. I knew if I screamed he would just hurt me again, but I can't just lay here doing nothing.

"Somebody!"

I tried to scream but his hand was covering my mouth as all you could hear was a muffle. 

"Goodbye Rachel. It was nice knowing you."

My vision disappeared. I saw him walk out the room smiling at me. There I was on the ground. Broken bones. Blood everywhere. Me and my baby was dying. In the reflection of the glass on the door I saw him walk past Josh smiling. Josh looked at him then the room. When he realised something was wrong he ran in.

"RACHEL!"