Goodbye.

Like I have no control.

It's now Lunch and me and Cory just walked out of class laughing. I grabbed my books around my chest holding up my bag over my shoulder; as I look up I see Josh glaring at me lent up against the lockers. 

"Um... Cory I'll be right back. Meet you next period."

He smiles then continues his day to the canteen. I take a deep breath walking over to Josh being careful to not bump into anyone. I stood right in front of him. He sighed chewing on his gum then looked over the crowd as he watched Cory walk away. 

"Well?"

He then lent himself up from slouching on the lockers.

"Who's he?"

"What Cory? A new, ish, kid. He only started a few weeks ago."

"Is anything going on? You know, between you?"

A spark struck in my mind. 

"What?! No! I've only just met him and he's really nice. Remember you were the only person I got to know in this school. I don't ever talk to anyone from back home."

"I get that but, do you like him?"

"Josh! I've only just met the guy but I can have friends! Even if they're guys. Besides, I like you. You know that."

"You're right. I'm sorry."

He stood up straight opening his arms then wrapping them around me pulling me close to his chest. As we stood there hugging his grip loosened. I lifted up my head to look at him watching everyone walk past.

"What are you looking at?"

I turned around to whiteness almost everyone glance at me as they walk past. I totally forgot. 

"Shit."

Josh grabbed my hand turning me around.

"What?"

"I forgot. Cory started talking about what happened to me. You know? When I got, raped. Apparently the whole school knows I got attacked or raped. But they don't know about me being, pregnant."

His face tightened with his grip. 

"What?! How?!"

"Hey quiet! Don't make them want to look more."

His took in a deep sigh calming himself down. 

"Sorry. How?"

"I don't know... Just carry on your day as normal try to ignore them."

He continued to hug me before Cory started to walk up to me smiling saying my name.

"Rachel!"

Josh's arms went loose as we both turned to see Cory shuffling his way through the crowd. I giggled at all of the facial expressions he pulled. He then eventually made his way over.

"What's up bud?"

I felt Josh clench as if he was jealous. In a way it made me laugh.

"You know I was listening to the band 1st class and you said you liked them?"

"Yeah?"

He placed his hand in his back pocket pulling out his phone then proceeding to unlock it.

"Well... There is the whole playlist on Itunes and as I already have it and it costs £5.00 I was wondering if you wanted me to get it for you?"

"Dude! That would be sick! But nah it's cool. I don't want you to spend your money on me."

He laughed then proceeded to talk.

"Nah it's alright I wont have to. You see at home I have this program on my computer and I can get anything I was for free. So maybe one day if you wanna come over or if I could bring my laptop to yours I can set it up for you?"

"Yeah that sounds like a plan. How about if you go to yours and get your laptop you can come over tonight?"

At that point I heard Josh clear his throat; telling me he didn't like the sound of that.

"Sorry Cory I should probably introduce you to Josh."

"Oh hey. Is he your brother?"

I burst out laughing as Josh didn't find it funny. He was genuinely slightly annoyed. 

"No. He's my boyfriend."

Cory started to laugh to.

"Oh sorry. Anyway yeah I've got your number so i'll text you later when I can come over."

"Yeah that sounds good."

We giggled slightly as Cory then left off to catch up with his mates.

"You gave him your number?!"

Josh got so jealous. I just proceeded to laugh.

"Josh I said it's nothing. Calm down you big sob!"

We laughed then hugged it out. As we released a voice swirled around my head. I removed myself from Josh. I walked out in the middle of the hallway. I stood there then turned my head and started to walk. It's like, I had no control. I walked straight. I could feel everyone's eyes locked onto me. Occasionally I bumped into someone but I carried on walking. Josh's voice echoed in the background. I wanted to turn back, to go back to him but no matter how hard I tried I kept walking. I got to the two front doors of the school then stood at the steps. I didn't move. 'His' voice faded behind my ear. 'He' was standing right behind me. Each breath or word he said stroked against my skin like wind. 

"I can't wait to see you baby."

His hands rubbed across my stomach. My throat tightened but no matter what I still couldn't move. 

"But I don't think I can if you're up in heaven."

Before I knew it a large force clashed against my back. I lost my balance before tumbling down the stairs. Josh screamed as he saw my body tumble down like a rag doll. When I finally landed I kept still. It's getting worse. Dangerous...