Living life .. A Zayn malik fan fiction

Am I dreaming this

A child calls to me from the big red shed but I can't see her .
Zayn is standing on front of the door and he won't move .
"Let me in why won't you move why won't you help me " I beg
"She's mine and you won't hurt her too ... " He scowls .
I scurry around him searching for her but I can't find her ...
"Help me " I scream at him but he shakes his head slowly .
He grabs me pushing me back out of the shed . I fall over and cut my hand , he stares down at me like I'm filth .

A small hand grips around his leg and I see black long curly hair waving but no face .

I shout for her to come to me over and over again ....
"Why won't you give me my baby back" I scream at him .
"Because she's mine not yours anymore " he scowls harshly .
"No ... " I scream and scream at him

"Sky wake up , wake up "

I bolt upright in a sweat my breathing heavy and uneven .
"What's wrong sky ?" Zayn shouts holding me by my shoulders shaking me .
"Why won't you give her to me she's mine " I whisper still reeling from my dream .
"Sky " he shouts again and suddenly my eyes spring open and I'm numb .
What's just happened ..

He pulls me in to his chest and holds me .
"You were shouting .. I didn't know what was going on " he says kissing the top of my head .

"I'm sorry .. A nightmare maybe " I reply and he holds me out again so he can look at me .

"How long have you been getting nightmares with ? I thought they stopped ?" he snaps but it's not intentional .

"I don't , that's the first in a while It was about our baby ... I mean my baby" I stutter rubbing my forehead , i am confusing my self

"I need water " I say rising as fast as i can from the bed and tossing on Zayn's T-shirt. I need to get away from him for a moment ..
Our baby ? Where the fuck did that come from .


I'm stood at the kitchen sink looking out the window over the manor .
What kind of a fucked up dream was that ? ..

"What did you mean ?" he asks startling me in the kitchen .
"About what ?" I reply but i know what he means .
"When i woke you up you said it was about... " he starts to explain .

"ah I was just rambling still half asleep probably I can't even remember what I said anyway I'm starving might as well stay up now that's it 7:30 " I reply moving around him to Switch on the coffee machine . My mind is numb and It takes me a second to find the switch.

"You said our baby I want to know what you dreamt of .. I'm curious " he asks with caution .

"Just drop it ok .. What's with the fucken questions ?" I snap back at him and it startles him .
His eyes narrow in on me and I know he's confused at my sudden outburst .

"Sky sweetheart you look really pale and tired , sit and I get you a coffee " he says but I don't move, I'm still in a trance .

"Please " he says and finally I do .

He places the coffee cup in front of me and takes a sit opposite me . He's moving carefully around me . He patiently waits until I'm ready to talk . No pressure this time .

"It was a baby . I think it was ours you wouldn't let me see her . You said you wouldn't let me hurt her too " I finally whisper
"And ... " The tears start to prickle in my eyes .. I stare at the floor beneath me .
He takes my hand in his but I jerk it off .
"Sky darling I would never do that , it was a dream . It's not real " he says softly .

"No not out of the blue like this .. I want a pregnancy test " I blurt out and his stares at me opened mouthed and wide eyed .

"It was a dream darling you don't need one . Your not thinking straight " he says
"My period is late I need a test , it's a sign " I shout and he holds his hands up .
"How late ?" he whispers
"I dunno like a few days .. Can you just go get a god damn test ?" I snap and he gets up disorientated and exits the room quickly .
2 minutes later I hear the door slam .

The minutes fly by and I'm still reeling from my dream .
What I am thinking this is stupid !
It's just a dream but its certainly a first where Zayn is in it .
The way he looked at me ..
It is just a dream I repeat to myself like a mantra .
I try to wrap my head around it .

A bag flings up onto the counter and I jump with the fright . I hadn't heard him come in .
He grabs a paper cup and hands it to me .
"Pee " he demands and he looks pissed off .

"I'm not pissing in a cup " I scowl at him .

"Piss the fucken cup now and bring it back out " he shouts and I'm to scared to argue.

I take the cup and head to the bathroom .
I have a little cry to myself as I sit on the toilet .
Why is he doing this ?
Why am I doing this actually ? ...

I pop the cup onto the counter and he has the test ready and waiting .
He's about to dip it in when I stop him.
"Why are you mad ?" I ask
"Because your being fucken stupid " he spits out dunking the test in and taking it out .
He faces it side down onto a piece of kitchen paper and sets his phone timer for 5 minutes .

Oh this is going to be the longest 5 minutes of my life ...


A/n stay tuned for part too .
I had so much to write I wanted to break it up . : )