Living life .. A Zayn malik fan fiction

Am I still dreaming part 3

I walk as fast as I can taking 2 steps at the time until I'm on the bottom floor . He's fast on my trail but can't quite keep up ...

"Sky wait please " he yells and I run faster towards the car .
I don't know why really because in less then a minute il be enduring a 15 minute drive with him .

"Just open the car please " I say quietly .

He unlocks it and I jump in tying my seat belt . He doesn't say anything for a minute he just sits there .
"Please Zayn just take me home " I cry out frustrated .
He sighs heavily and starts the car .

No words are spoken between us but he's glancing at me every minute or two . I continue to stare out the window . He's really tense I can tell by the way he's driving ..
He stops dead at a red light and I know he's only just noticed it at the last second .
"Are you trying to kill us " I snap and he hits his head against the steering wheel breathing out in frustration .

When we reach the drive way of my house I rip my belt . I want to get out as fast as I can . Nobody is home , there all gone to work .

He stops it dead outside my house and gets out with me .
"Sky please can we talk . Don't do this please " he calls after me but I don't turn around .
"Please " he begs and he's standing a little to close behind me as I fiddle with the key trying to open the door . His body is flush with mine .

All I want to do is to slap him hard and get over it but I can't bring myself to do it .

I drop my bag in the hall and walk up stairs . He doesn't fallow but instead closes the door and heads to the kitchen .

I leave my door open because I want to hear what he's doing downstairs .
I jump onto my bed and cradle one of my soft toys .
I want to cradle him but I won't let myself give in .

Why did he say all those things .. If that test were positive god knows what would of happened .
I should of never listened to my stupid conscience .

I close my eyes for a moment when I hear him entering the room . The bed dips and he lays down beside me on his back . He doesn't touch me .

Minutes pass and there's an awkward silence in the room . I have so much i want to say but don't have to words to say it .

"I love you " he whispers after a moment .
"I love you too " I reply because its the truth .

"If that test were positive then that would of been ok . I don't think your in the right head space at the moment to have another baby . I don't want you to go thru it yet . Your still healing and that's why I was mad . I guess I said those things because I love you . I was harsh because I was scared for you not me . While I was getting the test I thought maybe you were hopeful and that this was your answer . Like getting back up on the horse .. Ok well that's a shit metopher.. " He explains .
I turn on my side to face him but still not close enough to touch him .

"The timing is off .. It's all wrong . We have so much more to do before then and maybe if the accident in LA never happened it wouldn't of worried me so much, but it did and I'm sorry . Your not ready and neither am I .. Your still healing because you have only just started ." He says and turns in to face me .
He brushes his index finger along my jaw line .
"I would a baby with you darling but when your ready , I will be ready too " he says and edges his face closer to mine but I stop him .

"It was a hunch , I didn't think it would this huge can of worms . I'm not trying to get pregnant Zayn I was paranoid I needed to ease my mind . I don't even know why I had that stupid dream but it shook me up " I reply sadly and he closes his eyes for a moment .

"It was all the talk about the being the perfect house wife .. My wife " he whispers running his hand along the side of my cheek .
I smile a little at him .

"I need to listen more and not overreact and I'm sorry that I hurt you. I will never ever do that again . I never seen you so mad before like that .. It was a wake up call . I thought this would of been the finish of us and I can't lose you " he says and it's painful for him to say it .

"I can't lose you either .. But please let's not do this again .. I should of maybe mentioned my period was a couple of days off but sometimes it does that .. Your face thou when I said it .. " I giggle softly and he smiles . He moves closer to me and takes me in his arms .
We lay like that for a while not saying anything just thinking in our own thoughts .

"Lets not fight like this again please " he finally says and sits up so he can look me in the eyes .
I nod .
"Say it " he says
"We won't fight like this again " I reply and suddenly his lips are on mine.
He's needy hard and rough against mine .
"I love you " he breaths out kissing all of my face while he holds it down .
"I love you too " I reply reaching up to pull him down onto me..

This is make up sex at its best ..