Living life .. A Zayn malik fan fiction

Ghana part 1

The boys me , our assistants and the camera men are on our way out to the remote poorer region of Ghana and the deeper in we go the more poverty we see .
We are all dressed in plain clothing as as per there request and all jewellery left behind at the hotel .
I feel naked without my diamond heart necklace . It's my first time without it since Zayn gave it to me at the engagement party .

The first stop is a children's hospital , it's one of the poorest and once we step out of the jeep it's stinking hot and smells a little foul .
Zayn takes my hand in his as i hesitate for a moment . He kisses the corner of my mouth before we walk hand in hand in to the hospital , the charity workers that are accompanying us lead the way .

"Just speak to them , some don't speak English but most parents do . Just see for yourself the reason why we do this and speak from the heart " the English guy Ron explains to us .
"There's kids are dying without these vaccines but don't be frightened " he adds and I squeeze Zayn's hand harder in mine .

We all nod and agree and the cameras start rolling but they are far from my mind as we enter the ward were children are dying with out vaccines .

The boys freeze up not sure what to do, i think there finally taken back .

I keep hold of Zayn's hand and walk towards a mother who is holding her baby . The cameras fallow us . The rest disperse around the ward after us .

"Hello , my name is sky just like the sky outside " i point out towards the window .
"And this is Zayn " I tell her smiling .
I say and bend to hold her baby's tiny finger .
"Hi " he smiles bending with me .
"Is she very sick " I ask her sadly .
"Yes , she's dying " she replies in broken English and it breaks my heart. Her fingers are so fragile .

I rub my thumb along her baby's forehead softly before wishing her well and heading over to see a young woman who is cradling her crying baby .
Zayn introduces us using my like the sky line and the woman smiles pointing out the window .
Her baby is also dying and it's so sad but I can't let my guard down I have to be strong enough to do this . This was my idea , my plan , my wish .

I see Harry sitting with a mother and he's trying so hard not to break down . It's really tough .
Zayn goes to him but I stop him .
"Il go " I whisper and he nods closing his eyes .
"Are you ok ?" he whispers and I nod placing my hands on his chest .
"Yes " I reply smiling before turning my attention to Harry.

"Hey , my name is sky , just like the sky outside . What's your beautiful baby's name ?" I ask her slowly but gently Taking Harry's hand in mine for a moment , he squeezes my hand gratefully .

"I am her grandmother , her name is yoshicko " she replies and her English is quite impressive .
"This is your grand child " i smile warmly at her . "where is her mother " I ask her and she takes my hand in hers .
"She is dying " she replies and I close my eyes briefly .
"I'm sorry to hear that " I say and squeeze her hand within mine .

Harry holds the babies hand gently before saying goodbye . He's finding this hard . He takes a minute outside and I see one of the camera men with him filming as he speaks what he's feeling .

I see Zayn on his own in the corner sitting on a bed cradling a baby while the nurse watches on .

"Hi " I say sitting next to him and he smiles at me but its a sad smile .
I run my finger along her cheek .

"She has no family , she's an orphan " he tells me trying to hold his emotions in .
I don't know what to say .

"Both her parents died of HIV little over a month ago " he adds and I wrap one arm around his back holding myself closer to him .
I can feel his eyes on me closely . He's watching my emotions closely .
I remain calm and in control .
"She's so precious " I whisper

"Can you take her " he asks quickly and I nod my head taking her from him . What's wrong ?

He exits quickly fallowing in Harry's footsteps while camera men fallow his trail . Oh he needs a break .
It is pretty intense ..

I place the baby back down and fallow him but remain away enough so he can't see me .
He's trying to give his version of what he feels to the cameras but its too much , he's crying but he's trying his best to suck it up . It breaks my heart to watch him and the tears prickle in the back of my eyes . I try to suck it up so I walk away .

I go sit with Liam while he plays with a fragile child who's dying also . I will give Zayn his Space for a moment but he returns a couple of minutes later removing his hat to wipe his brow then placing it firmly back in place .

He smiles at me and sits with us . We speak with the nurses and the support workers about what this means and what we can do to help .
We pose for pictures and say our goodbyes .
It's been really tough today and its taken its toll on us .
I expected to see what I saw but when's it there in front of you it's over whelming .
I lay against Zayn staring out the window as he holds me tightly against him .
"Are you ok ?" he asks quietly and I nod against him .

It's a quite drive to the local school ..