My Silent Undoing (Frank Iero)

CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO

                   

Chapter Thirty-Two:

         The tour so far has been interesting for me.  I've been keeping a close watch on Gerard.  He so far hasn't been too reckless, but I sense him restraining himself since I was around him so much.

         I have noticed that Taking Back Sunday tend to hang around with My Chemical Romance a lot, and especially Adam.  Which I do not mind at all.  In fact, I encourage it.  He's just so damn attractive.

         I have noticed Frank keeping an eye on Adam and I when we are interacting, but I ruled this out to me just being paranoid.  Frank doesn't care.  Why would he?  It's been a year since we broke up, and I'm sure there's been girls in his life.

         "Lila, you here?"  I hear Adam's voice from around the corner.  I feel my heart race in a way that makes me feel excited to see him. It felt good to feel this way about someone again.

         "Just sitting here," I say casually.  We had set up some lawn chairs outside of the tour buses.  I was sitting down by myself with a book in my hand.  The boys were at their sound check for the show tonight. 

         "What's a beautiful lady like yourself all alone on a beautiful day like this?"  He asks charmingly with a big grin on his face.  Adam had this charisma that I was falling for easily. 

         "Waiting for my boys to get back," I can't help but smile back at him. 

         "Want to go for a little walk around the venue?" He suggests.  I nod my head, and get up from the chair.

         "When's your sound check?" I ask him.

         "Once they are done we have to go do ours.  I'm guessing you'll head to merch an hour before the doors open, right?"  He asks curiously.

         "Yeah that's when I tend to go help set up the merch table."  I answer.  Today we were in Colorado.  Thankfully today was lovely.  Not too hot, and not cold at all.  We walk around bantering and casually flirt till we get back to the front.  Which is when my boys leave the venue.  I see them looking over at me.  Ray walks over to us.

         "You guys are up now."  Ray tells Adam.  Adam and him high-five each other. 

         "It was nice talking to you Lila," he says looking at me.  He winks at me, and walks towards the entrance of the venue. 

         "Lila, can I talk to you?" Mikey looks at me with a livid face.

         "Sure." I say and follow him to the side.  I caught Frank's eyes, and notice that he had a hint of anger flaring in his eyes.  This confuses me.  Why is he mad?  Why is Mikey angry with me?

         Mikey pulls me far away from everyone.  I see that they began the journey back to the tour bus. 

         "What do you think you are doing?"  Mikey spits out angrily.

         "Nothing.  What are you talking about?"  I ask angrily back.

         "You came on this tour to make sure Gerard stays in control, and to help us keep him from falling into his addictions.  Or have you forgotten why you are here in the first place?  Have you lost sight of you what's really important because some sleazy singer is giving you an ounce of attention?" He barks out. 

I couldn't help it.  I was furious.  I slap him in reaction.  I feel tears stinging my eyes.

"How dare you say I don't care about the well-being of my brother."  I turn and storm off to cry anywhere but here.

I hear him call for me, but I don't want him anywhere near me.  I need to focus on my breathing.  I sense my anxiety start to take its toll on me.

Just like that I disappeared.

(Hours Later)

         (Frank's POV)

         "Hey anyone see Lila?"  Ray asks worriedly.

         "She's probably with Adam," I say while rolling my eyes.

         "No I don't think she is.  I haven't seen her since we finished the sound check." Ray says. 

         "I'll go talk to the merch leader." I say.

         I go up to Sam.  The leader of our official merch.  "Hey Sam, have you seen Lila?"  I ask.

         "She never showed up to help us during the show.  Thought she was probably backstage."  Sam replies.  My heart starts to sink.

         "No.  I think she's missing."  I begin to jog back to our tour bus.

         "Guys Lila is missing." I say.

         "No she can't be."  Mikey starts to panic.  We all begin to walk around the area looking for her.  She wasn't answering her phone. 

Author's Note:

This chapter is dedicated to my dear friend Esme.  <3 Love you girl! :D