My Silent Undoing (Frank Iero)

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE:

Going back to school after being gone for a few months was strange. Frank held my hand tight as we walked into the school. He knew I was nervous. I was shaking a bit.

"Just relax." He whispers in my ear.

I am nervous but at the same time I am absolutely exhilarated. I finally am feeling good in my own skin. On my own. For once I feel good walking around on my own. Physically and mentally. When Frank leaves my side I feel comfortable. Before I would feel exposed and scrutinized.

I am not oblivious to the whispers about me when I walk down the hallway. I find myself smiling. It feels good to be back.

Walking into my first class I have a tiny jump to my step. Classes today go by so quick. I was having fun, because I missed something that I did normally before I went into rehab.

At lunch sitting down with Mikey, and Frank is the best feeling in the whole world. Kara and Dom are so happy when I sit down. Max is also very welcoming. Kara and Max are very cute together.

Frank gives me this small smirk, and I find myself blushing.

"What's going on between you two?" Dom whispers excitedly in my ear. He's on my right, and Kara is on my left.

"Why did Frank just wink at you?" She questions me.

"Guys I just got back." I whisper back to the two of them. Vultures. I swear they are vultures. They both giggle at me.

After I finish eating lunch Frank gets up and comes over to my side.

"Can we talk for a moment Lila," He looks at me with a mischievous grin.

"Sure." I said a bit unsure of myself. Frank always knows how to make me uneasy when he's up to no good.

He grabs my hand and I follow him out. We are in the hallway. We walk for a little while in silence. It is soothing and comfortable.

"How's your first day back?" He looks over at me. He stops in front of his locker, and he opens it. He begins rummaging through it.

"It's going pretty well. It's nice to be back." I give him a small smile which he doesn't see since he's going through his stuff.

"I'm glad." Whatever he was looking for he finally found it. It was a few sheets of paper.

"I wrote this for my band. I wanted you to be the first one to hear it later after school." He hands it over to me, and I see that it's sheet music with lyrics written in as well.

"Oh Frank." I am overwhelmed. This was a big deal. He hardly felt comfortable writing his music, and he just let me in.

I read it the moment he gave it to me. It was so raw and exposed. The feeling that was rushing through these lyrics. His words. His ideas. I feel sort of like I am reading his journal. It's very personal, and I feel so overwhelmed.

"This is amazing. I can't wait to hear it." I say to him, and he smiles at me. We are pretty close as always. Frank pulls me in for a hug.

"I missed seeing you at school." He whispers softly in my ear. A sense of familiarity and safety that I only get when I am with Frank is intensified especially when I am in his arms.

"I missed this so much as well." I whisper back, and back up a little bit. We are staring into each other's eyes. For a moment nothing else matters. It's just us. And nothing else.

Frank looks so beautiful close up. His gorgeous hazel eyes. I feel the urge to kiss him tingle all over my body. I for some reason go with it. I gently drop the hands that were wrapped around his waist and I gently hold his face to mine. I kiss him gently and softly, but I don't let go. At first, Frank seems to be in shock. Then he is kissing me back.

The kiss is gentle and soft, and says more about how I feel towards him then I should be revealing. I just can't help it. I think...no I am in love with Frank. That thought alone makes me shiver. The bell rings, and at first we don't pull apart. We keep kissing, and then remember where we are. I pull away slowly.

"I-I should get to class. Can't be late for my first day." I stutter and smile briefly. Frank leaves me breathless, and almost speechless.

"I'll see you later Lila." He isn't smiling. He looks surprised, and maybe terrified. Something has changed. I don't know what.

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FRANK'S POV:

That kiss. I can't stop thinking about it. The urgency and gentleness of it was too much for me. Lila just got back, and yet I feel surprised that she kissed me.

I know she isn't a delicate thing that we all have to protect. She's strong and independent with her choices. I just didn't know she would kiss me. It was a delightful unexpected surprise.

Something did feel different in that kiss.

All our other kisses were mostly passionate, and maybe once or twice it had felt intimate and personal.

This was one was not like any of them.

It felt so intimate that I feel chills all over my body just thinking about it.

I feel exposed after that kissed. She kissed me with such rawness that I feel exposed.

She is something else.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

You all are great for dealing with my nonsense. I am so sorry that I haven't updated in ages. <3 Love you all.