My Silent Undoing (Frank Iero)

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN:

I weigh 88 pounds finally. It's been very hard lately to get out of eating near the group. I find it harder and harder to lie to them, because I think they might have an idea of what's happening. I don't want them to stop me.

Last night I fell asleep in Frank's bed, and I woke up to him oddly sleeping on the ground next to me holding my hand. Weird. Why didn't he just sleep in the bed with me.

He was slowly waking up.

"Why did you sleep on the ground silly?" I ask him.

"I was worried my mom would come in this time." I chuckle at his remark.

"You never worried about that before."

"Well remember like two weeks ago on my birthday when she came in?" I nod my head. "Well she already knew that we had a sleepover once before. So I was worried she'd think something wrong of us."

"Good thinking. Next time I'll take the floor. It's your bed."

"You'll never get the floor." He took my hand in his again and rubbed it gently. "I need water I'll be right back. Need something?" He asks me as he's about to leave the room. He looks so cute in his pajama pants and band t-shirt.

"Just water please."

Frank heads downstairs.

FRANK'S POV

I walk into the kitchen to find my mom sitting at the table drinking her mug of coffee.

"You broke my rule." She says quietly.

"What?" I am confused.

"She slept in your room. You two are such idiots. You sleeping on the ground holding her hand. Its so cute I almost threw up when I saw that." She rolls her eyes.

"Mom!" I yell at her softly so Lila doesn't hear.

"I don't get how you two aren't together yet. It makes no sense."

"Mom!"

"What its tje truth. You two are dumb. But its ok. I still love you. And I don't want to be a grandmother yet. So keep being dumb for a few more years. Love you." She then passes me and kisses me on the head.

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LILA'S POV

It's amazing having Frank back in my life again. We hang out when we can, and yet we still make time for family, and our other friends. Kara and Max are doing really well. They are a precious couple. Dom and I tease Kara whenever we can. She is so happy that it's really cute how she blushes.

My mom isn't really doing much these days. There is no food in the house. So I happily don't have to eat anything anymore unless my friends force me a piece of something when we hang out. It's usually one small slice of pizza. But I can go days without eating anything. I can't really run anymore. I loose my breath too quickly.

Today I am at work with Mikey at the bookstore. I am alone at the children's section putting books away. When all of a sudden my vision is blurry, and I feel dizzier than usual. Sometimes I get quite dizzy from the lack of food. I slowly feel myself fall to the ground, and everything goes to black.

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I wake up to a soothing voice.

"Lila." I realize it is Mikey's voice calling out to me. I slowly try to get up. I am in Mikey's arms in the stock room.

"I'm ok." I say automatically. My head is pounding. The hunger today is overwhelming my senses. It must of been why I passed out.

"Here. Have some juice. I think your blood sugar is low or something. Or should I take you to the hospital?" Mikey seems nervous. He doesn't know what to do. I gently hold his arm as I try to steady myself to be sitting on my own. I sit on the chair next to us.

"I am fine. I'll drink some juice. That's probably what it is." I chuckle trying to reassure him that everything was fine.

"And eat some saltines." He hands me a little package of crackers. I feel my insides betray me in desire for the crackers.

"No it's fine." I shake my head.

"No you must." He is stern in this. "You didn't eat on your break."

"Fine." I take the package. I chug the juice down, and open the package. My fingers are shaking. I haven't eaten anything in two days.

Working like this was going to get me in trouble. I just know it.

Tonight we were going to all hang out at the Way household.

Gerard, Mikey, Ray, Frank, and I. It'll be fun.

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Mikey drives us to his house after work. The boys are there, and I feel Mikey's eyes glued on to me. He knows something is off about me. He is worried, and doesn't trust me to take care of myself. I can see it in his eyes. I notice him approach Gerard, and they start whispering about something. I know it's about me.

I go up to Ray and Frank to give them hugs. I am wearing a massive hoodie. Trying to hide how thin I have become underneath. Or else they will all know.

There is pizza already here. And I know they will force me to eat. Gerard comes up to me with a plate of two thin slices of cheese pizza.

"Here Lila. Eat this." He looks at me with very persistent eyes. Whatever Mikey and him talked about there is no way I can get out of eating these two slices without causing a huge scene. Or a very heated argument. I take the plate. My hands are still shaking. I give him a small smile. He smiles back, but it doesn't reach his eyes.

As soon as I finish the slices as fast I can I excuse myself to use the bathroom. I need to quickly make myself sick, and rid my body of this fattening pizza.

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RAY'S POV

"I'll be right back. I have to use the bathroom too." Instead of waiting for Lila I go and wait outside the bathroom door. I all of a sudden hear a retching sound. As though Lila were vomiting. I hear lots of flushing and the water was running the whole time, but I still heard the sounds. A few minutes later she is opening the door.

She notices me, and her eyes go wide. She smiles at me.

"Hey Ray."

"Is everything ok?" I ask her.

"Yeah, why wouldn't it be?" She's lying to me. I know she was throwing up. Why didn't she tell me? Because she thinks I didn't hear it.

After a few hours Lila is getting tired, and calls it a night. Frank of course walks her back home next door.

Once he gets back I decide to open my voice on the situation.

"I heard Lila vomiting in the bathroom, and then she lied to me that everything was ok." I admit.

Gerard and Mikey don't look shocked, but Frank does. He seems so surprised.

"Have you noticed how thin she's been getting lately?" I ask the group. I feel so worried because now I realize how serious this all is. It's as though I was blind to the truth earlier.

"She passed out at work today." Mikey tells us.

"Why didn't I know about this?" Frank asks.

"Because you are blind when it comes to Lila. Because you like her you dumb ass." Gerard says.

"We need to do something, before it's too late." Mikey says seriously.

"We just need to make her eat more. And keep the food in." I say.

"Perhaps start it slowly. Or it could be to overwhelming for her." Gerard says.

"I could help too." Frank says. He looks so sad.

"It'll get better." Gerard tries to reassure Frank.

"We just need to support her till she gets better." I say.

"We just can't let her loose any more weight." Mikey says.

And we all agreed.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

This might be the mid point of the story, or more like we are about to reach the halfway point real quick. Thanks for reading lovelies!!! <3