As you lay down - Destiel

Fallingforyou - 6

THERE IS NO WAY THAT I LIKE DEAN. I AM NOT HEART-BROKEN. I CAN NOT BE IN LOVE. FUCK, I FORGOT TO BREATHE. 

I take one breath in and one out, this can't be happening. Placing my head between my hands and tilting forward makes the sickness feel a little less horrible. The pit in my stomach has now been completely replaced by sickness and I feel like I'm going to throw up in about 0.2 seconds. So I rush to the bathroom, earning confused looks from Sam and Dean. I bend over the toilet and just get it all out. I have never been in this much panic before. Dean is like a brother to me, I mean he's different from Sam, of course, but still. I flush the toilet and look into the mirror. At this very moment, I look very pale, almost in a shade of green. I splash some water on my face and see that the colour of my usual tone is slowly coming back. I go out the bathroom but is quickly stopped be Dean. 

"You okay?" Dean says and stops me from moving on by taking up the entire hallway. 

"Yeah I'm...fine, don't worry about me" I say as I try to walk past him but he pushes me back.  Fuck. 

"What happened to your voice?" He says and squints his eyes a little. 

"My voice?" 

"You've gone all angel again" 

"I don't know Dean, I'm tired" I push my way through and lock my room from the inside. I didn't mean to come off as rude but I needed to get away from him. I just can't get my head around the fact that I like him. It's so disturbing to me, it isn't normal. Dean is my friend, with a girlfriend. He doesn't like me. At what point did I even start liking him? Has it always been like this? The room is spinning. The room is spinning. The room is spinning. The room is spin-

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"Did you hear that?" I ask my brother. 

"Yeah, did it come from Cas room?" 

"I think so" 

We both go to his room and knock on the door. 

"Cas, are you okay?" I ask through the closed door. I try to open it but it's locked. 

"Cas?" Sam says, in a very loud tone. Still no reply. 

"Cas, if you don't reply I'm gonna kick in the door" I say. Again, no reply from him. I look at Sam for approval and he nods. So with the power I got, I kick the door in. Cas is lying on the floor. Bloody and a gash on his head. 

"CAS!" I yell. 

"I'm calling the ambulance, stay here with him" Sam rushes out of the room. 

"Hey Cas, stay with me. This is not the way you're gonna go out, okay? C'mon you can do better than that." I laugh a sad laughter. Cas pulse is still going, but only very faint. His breaths are slow and really far apart as well. He was actually getting better. Isn't that ironic? 

Half an hour later we're at the hospital. I have no idea what's going on as Sam is the one who's doing the talking to the nurses. I texted Annabeth to tell her what happened, but I still haven't got a reply. But it isn't until now that I see that a man is sitting next to me. 

"Chuck?" I turn to look at him, extremely confused. Why is he here?  

"Oh hello, Dean!" 

"What on earth are you doing here?"

"I heard your prayers, wouldn't want one of my favourites in trouble now, would I?" Chuck smiles a little.

"But, at this time? Now? And what's going on in Midgard or whatever?" I'm so confused. 

"I can't put a hand in the Midgard drama, even God has his limits. The same goes for Crowley, as I can tell you have been wondering. And as for the choice of time, Amara and I still have some things to sort out between us but I still thought I might check in on you, as you don't tend to pray to me that often. But don't worry Cas is going to be just fine, I'll make sure of it. But only if you do the same to him"

"I have been taking care of Cas, what are you talking abo-" Sam walks into the room 

"Whoops, that must be  my cue to go" And just as that Chuck disappears. 

"Hey" Sam says. 

"How's Cas?" I ask, still confused about what Chuck meant. 

"He'll live, we can see him now if you want to. And also I brought you a coffee" Sam says and hands me one of the two brown cylinder containers he has in his hands. 

"Thank you, let's go inside then"

We walk inside of Cas hospital room in silence. But when we actually get there, Sam stays close to the door. I give him a confused look. 

"You should be the one to talk to him" Sam says and shrugs his shoulders. Cas looks so very peaceful in his bed. A little like when I first met him, hair-wise. He doesn't fit inside this white room with all those tubes around him. 

"Did you find out what happened to him?" I say and turn to Sammy. 

"The nurses weren't really sure, but they think he passed out and hit his head on something."

Damn it Cas, being human really isn't going too well for you. I turn back to Cas and see that his chest is moving up and down, making me a little relieved. At least the dumbo is still alive. 

"Hey, Cas. You probably can't hear this but I'm fucking worried for you. You need to calm down okay?" I speak to an unconscious Castiel. 

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Everything is so dark and empty. Dean's voice. My eyes open and I look into a pair of green eyes. They're Dean's. I suppose he wasn't aware of me doing so as he jumps back a little. 

"Where am I?" I try to rub my eyes but my arms are stuck to some tubes, making it very difficult. Oh. 

"You're in the hospital after passing out and hitting your head. Good job" Dean smiles at me. Fuck. Why does he do that? I never really thought I'd be falling for him until now. Damn him. 

"How long do I have to be here?" I ask and Sam appears from the door, I didn't even notice him. 

"A couple of days. They've already gotten you stitched up  so now you only have to heal properly, in a human way. But don't worry, Dean will stay here with you" Sam says and Dean smiles at me again. 

Fuck.