As you lay down - Destiel

Menswear - 22

I wake up by some noise. I can't really place my hand on what it is. I bury my face in my pillow and sigh. So tired. Why am I so tired?  Jesus Christ. What's the clock? Like 2 AM or some shit? I turn over and look just to find that it's 7 AM. How the fuck? I close my eyes shut and sigh again. Then I quite literally roll out of bed, not realising that most beds actually have some sort of end to them and I fall flat down on the floor. Oh god, it's cold down here. I quickly get up and sit on the bed instead. I place my head in my hands and almost fall asleep like that until I hear the sound again. It almost sounds like someone wants to get in. 

I grab my gun and walk out into the hallway. Then I see a person. It looks like a girl. Wait. No. Why is she here? 

"Claire?" I ask. I'm really confused 

"Oh, Dean, hello!" Claire says. 

"What are you doing here?" 

"I wanted to check up on Castiel so I texted him yesterday and asked if it was okay that I came over. He said sure and texted me the address. Fancy place you've got here by the way"

I facepalm and tell Claire to stay where she is and that I'm just quickly going to get Cas. I walk over to his room and open the door as I didn't lock it yesterday. He lays there so peacefully. Like he's at ease. I wonder what he dreams about. I wonder if he even dreams. I think he is. But then again, I don't know what kind of stuff Chuck gave the guy. 

I shake Cas gently. He doesn't seem to wake up, though. So I shake him a bit more, making him shoot right up. 

"What? What? I'm awake!" He says, hair sticking up all over the place. Looking startled and getting voice cracks here and there. 

"Hey. Cas. Calm down" 

Cas head finally stills and he looks up at me. He seems to finally relax and says "Oh, hello Dean" 

I sigh for the third time within 10 minutes and say "Claire is here"

"Claire? Why is she here? How did she even get here?" He asks and squints his eyes. 

"I don't know, man. She says that she wanted to check up on you so she texted you yesterday asking if it was okay for her to come. You said yes and texted back the details" 

"Oh. Yeah. I have a faint memory of that" 

"Whatever. She's waiting for you, so you better get going" 

I walk out of Cas room knowing that he'll be out any minute as well. I realise that I still have no idea what happened to Cas when he was gone, nor what's going to happen to us. He did kiss me. But why? How much of me does he remember? I just wish there was a way for him to completely remember everything about me. Even the bad parts. Because somehow that's what he fell in love with in the first place.  I still don't get that and I probably will never do so. And now there's probably not even a way for me to find out as Cas doesn't know either. Whatever. But it isn't really whatever. I hate myself for caring so much. I hate myself for caring at all. Why am I so fucking attached to the guy? 

Claire has gone into the living room and sat down on the couch. She looks around and seems quite impressed. I can't help but smile a little to myself. 

Claire then speaks. "This is pretty impressive considering the amount of money you have"

I sit down next to her and say "Well we didn't exactly buy it"

Claire lifts one eyebrow "You stole it?" she asks. 

"What? No! Good to know what you think about us, though. No, we're kinda the heirs to this place"

Claire shakes her head "Okay one" she says and lifts her finger "You've committed endless crimes, break-ins, credit cards frauds the list goes on" Claire raises her second finger and asks "Heirs?" 

"Well, our granddad did this thing that they had here and then we met him and I kinda wanted to kill him but it's all good now" 

"I didn't know you and Sam had relatives that were...alive" 

"Actually we don't. There was some time travel involved and well our dad was dead so we were the second best"

Claire blinks and then says "Okay, I'm not even going to ask because my brain is already exploding a little bit" 

Cas then enters the room. He's wearing his usual shirt but the buttons seems to be buttoned up wrong. His hair is still standing at every direction. He looks like what you would see if you were to look up the word mess. 

"Claire!" Cas breaths out. 

"Hey" 

"Did you forget I was coming out something?" She asks and laughs. 

"Well no, actually I-" Cas looks over Claire's shoulder to me as I'm now giving him signs not to finish that sentence. "My alarm didn't go off" 

"So, how are you?" Claire asks. 

"I'm better but I'm suffering from some memory loss. Especially from my human time" 

"Oh. Do you remember me?" Claire asks. It seems like she's getting a little sadder. 

"Yeah. You're Jimmy's daughter, correct?" 

Claire nods and says "That's me" 

"I remember all about you"

Cas smiles and Claire smiles back at him. 

"That's actually all I wanted to do, check up on you. Make sure that you're alright, after all I did leave the hospital" 

"Thanks, Claire. I appreciate that" 

Cas pulls Claire into a hug that makes Cas look quite tall for the first time in a while. 

I step into the conversation and ask "So where are you going now?" 

Claire replies by saying "I'm traveling around a little with my friend Joan" 

"Joan? Who's that?" I ask. 

She sighs and says "Just this guy I've known for a while. Really nice and no, not a demon"

I roll my eyes "Just a guy huh?" 

Claire punches my arm "Oh, shut up" 

I smile at her and say "Call if anything happens" 

"Sure" 

And just like that, she leaves. I smile at her when she walks out. She has grown so much with everything she's been through. I walk into the kitchen and Cas follows me. I grab a glass of water and sit down at the table. Cas sits down in front of me. 

"Dean, we should speak about yesterday"