January 1, 2012
Dear Diary,
Not entirely sure how I feel about school starting up again. Mostly quizy, not entirely sure why though too. Maybe because I'll have homework again or maybe because I don't feel at peace there.
Sometimes I don't feel at peace with either of my parents. It hurts occasionly to think some thoughts ever about what would happen if I ever happened to disappear, to vanish myself from this planet. I wonder what it would be like. Would I finally be at some sort of restless bliss, or will I not even know?
I feel a strange feeling when I think about these things, these odd thoughts about disapeering. Who knows it may be a weird thing about being a teenager, or maybe I am slowly losing my mind!
Earlier today, and it's been happening a lot, I got so frustrated I started bawling my eyes out. Possibly I need psychiatric help or something.
I hope and pray, like I've been doing forever, that this year and years to come I'll find my peace, my lightness and maybe along the way and everlasting hope for sanity and love.
Love,
Darla
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