February 18, 2012

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                                                                                                                         February 18, 2012

Dear Diary,

        Anger, violence, disrespect, disruption, guilt, upset, lifeless, lost and hopeless are the emotions that swirl in my head.

Everyday I add a new emotion to my long list of them. Never have I felt true and pure happiness. Boredom is in the equation today, along with loneliness.

Have you ever felt when someone looks at you a certain way that makes you think they understand. Like how a cat or dog looks at you with admiration and understanding because they'll love you no matter what the case is? Well people should be like them. People or a certain person should glance at me that way, maybe even not just me, whoever!

Hatred or confusion is what I see when I look at their eyes if someone glances at me. Have I done something wrong? Am I not meant to have that crystal clear picture. I would rather have my cat or dog stare at me all day, then endure whats at school or at home.

It's odd because the more I think about this, the more it gives a peace to my mind. Don't know why, but when I look into a persons eye I feel a calming.

I don't know if I am loosing my mind slowly..... I don't know.

          Love,

                    Darla

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