Trapped

35

We get to the airport in silence, neither of us have spoken in an hour. we sit in the terminal in silence, we go through security in silence. we go through duty free in silence, we wait for our flight in silence, we board the plane in silence and we sit through an eight hour flight in complete silence.

halfway through the flight Shawn falls asleep and for the first time today I look at him. his lips slightly opened as soft snores leave his mouth. he is so beautiful, such a beautiful mess. I love him so much, and he hasn't fucked up in a really long time but I am still so disappointed. I'm annoyed that all I've done is nurture and help him to become a better person and all it takes is one man to throw that all away. I can't deal with his short temper all the time like this, we need to change that when we get back home. but I need to step back a little. I can't support him completely, he needs to help himself, he needs to find himself and his route of anger and help himself. because I cannot hop inside his brain and figure out what causes him to do bad things all the time. we just need to talk when we get back to Canada. right now I have no words for him and I just need to calm myself down so when I do eventually speak to him I don't explode.

the flight lands and I gently shake Shawn to wake him up. we get into a taxi, again in complete and utter silence as we enter my house.

I begin to walk up the stairs lugging my massive suitcase but it won't budge and I sigh I frustration, Shawn doesn't say a word, he just grabs my suitcase and carries both mine and his up the stairs effortlessly. his muscles look so sexy in that black tshirt, his veins showing as he carries the suitcases.... but I can't get myself distracted with that right now.

I get upstairs and into my room and my suitcase is there but Shawn isn't, as soon as I'm about to call for him he comes up behind me and kisses my neck and my eyes flutter closed.

"you do everything for me." he whispers and places a gentle kiss against my neck.

"you help me when everyone else has given up on me." he kissss me again, this time sucking at the skin.

"you're the most beautiful, intelligent, kind hearted person I've ever met in my life." he sucks my skin harder and I moan, I still have so much to say but right now I just want him to touch me and kiss me.

"I love you, so much." he groans and pushes his crotch against my behind. I turn around and grab his face in my hand as I kiss him, my tongue follows his and my hands move to the hem of his shirt as I break our kids to lift it over his head.

"we still have so much to talk about." I breathe heavily looking at his beautiful body infront of me.

"I know baby." he breathes and takes my bottom lip between his, sucking harshly causing me to moan. "later." he lifts my shirt over my head and grabs me by my thighs and I wrap them around his waist.

he walks to towards the bed and falls back with me on top of him. I harshly grind down on him and I feel him harden against me. he begins to undo my jeans and I stand up to take them off, and take his off too. I climb back on top of him and he pushes my panties to the side as I grind on top of him and inserts two fingers inside of me, pumping slowly, too damn slowly, I rock myself against him and bury my face into his neck.

"that's it, fuck yourself on my fingers." he groans and moves his fingers faster, my moans are loud and uncontrolled as I move my hips as he pleasures me.

my whole body starts to shake as I rest my head on his shoulder, my moans are loud and I can't control myself as I come from his fingers. my breathing is heavy but Shawn wastes no time by lifting my head by my chin and kissing me again.

my hands go down to his boxers and I quickly pull them down before moving to the floor on my knees. I take him in my hand and move my hand at the slowest pace possible, he stares down at me carefully with his breathing heavy and uncontrolled.

"please." he moans and I gently kiss the head of his cock and I feel him pulse in my hand. his head rolls back and I chuckle before taking him into my mouth.

he groans and immediately shifts his hips to thrust himself deeper down my throat as my mouth moves at a torturous pase. I make a long loud ground while he's still in my mouth and he moans.

"I need to fuck you now." he hisses. "stop or I'll come in your mouth." he moans and I stop my movements. when I stand to my feet he stands up too and takes off my bra, eyeing my chest before grabbing my nipples between his fingers and gently rubbing them. it feels so fucking good but is also driving me insane. I just want him to make love to me, and now.

"please baby" I moan and wrap my arms around his torso. "please fuck me." I cry and he chuckles. he stops his movements before turning me around and slowly kisses my neck from behind.

"I love you more than anything. I would do anything to make you happy, please remember that." he breathes as he slowly enters me. I moan loudly and feel like I'll collapse but he grabs my hair in his fist to keep me standing in front of him as he rocks into me.

"tell me how it feels." he breathes into my neck.

"so fucking good." I groan and he moans, taking his spare hand and rubbing my most sensitive area. my moans become much louder as he thrusts into me and rubs me.

"I, love you. so much." I say with shaky and uncontrolled breaths. the feeling of him thursting into me, while he forcefully grabs my hair and rubs me is an amazing sensation. I feel like I can barely breathe but it feels so damn good.

"no matter what happens." he moans as he pounds harder into me, letting go of my hair and putting his hand around my neck to keep me up straight as he continues to rock into me at a steady but torturing pace. "even things I do that don't make sense in that moment." he circles his hips and curses under his breath. "I will always love you."

I could come just from his words. I love this man so much and although I'm still pissed off one little slip up will not be the end of us.

"please, faster." I beg and he chuckles before kissing my neck and pounding into me, deeper and harder than ever before. his movements are strong and with each thrust I moan louder and louder, but his pace stays slow and steady.

"I knew you liked it rough." he says into my ear as I reach up and grab his bicep with the hand firmly around my throat, I'm so close as I dig my nails into his skin. "you're so dirty." he moans and moves faster. I feel like I'm fighting for breaths as he pounds into me fast and hard, it's pain mixed with the most amazing pleasure and lust. even though I have all of him, I still want more.

"yes." I cry as his fingers move faster on my clit. "I'm..." I can't even finish my sentence, im so close.

"come for me." he whispers and kisses my neck and I'm done for.

I ride out what feels like my most intense high yet. my whole body shakes as Shawn's movements get sloppier my eyes roll back and when I'm finished my head falls back onto Shawn's shoulders. he quickly moves out of me, before throwing me onto the bed and climbing on top of me, touching himself.

his moans are loud and uncontrolled as he releases on my stomach in less than 10 seconds. he collapses next to me as we both try and catch our breaths.

"fucking you feels so much better without a condom." he says after a few seconds.

"that's all you have to say?" I look at him and he shrugs. I can't help but laugh as I roll over and wrap my arms around his torso.

"you know you piss me off beyond belief. you always manage to get us in trouble but I'll love you forever." I tell him and hug him tighter. he lets out a long sigh as he wraps his arms around me.

"I'll love you forever too."