So the time went on. Jc spent thanksgiving with me, which really just ended in us ordering Chinese food and watching movies. I wouldn't of changed a thing though. His eyes seemed to dance every time he spoke of a passed event, re-enacting the memory for me. He talked about Jaylyn and Joe Felix, Ava and Wishbone, YouTube and his friends.
"What about you?" He asked. "Any stories to tell?"
"Not any good ones." I shrugged, wanting to avoid the question. Truth be told all of my good stories were just very distant memories.
"Oh come on, let's play a game. You tell me your best day and I'll tell you mine, then we can do first days." He smiled, trying to coax me. Of course I had to agree.
"My best day? I was 6. My mom was home from filming whatever it was she was doing, probably some commercial then. We were living in New York, so of course it wasn't a bad idea to go to Times Square. The bad idea however, was letting go of my hand. She lost me I'm the crowd for 10 minutes, when I found her she hugged me and told me she loved me." I grinned.
"So why was that your best day?" He asked, cocking his head slightly.
"That was the first time she ever said she loved me." I glanced down into my lap, not wanting to meet his stare.
"She had to of told you that before, right?" He nervously chuckled.
"Look Jc, I don't want to get into it." Of course I had to after looking up into his eyes, he was searching for answers. "Fine. When I was born, my mom didn't want me, she walked out of the hospital without me on her release day. My dad came and got me after work, and when I got home she wanted nothing to do with me. For years my dad raised me by himself, she didn't want to stay with us." I felt myself start to breathe slowly so I wouldn't cry. "I was a mistake in her mind and she wanted to run away from it. It took 6 years for her to tell me she loved me, and another 12 to want to live with me." Tears fell, hitting my lap.
His arms found their way around me, my face fell into his shoulder.
I don't know how long we sat like that, but it felt like forever. I cried and he rubbed my back.
"You know," he started to whisper in my ear. "i think you're a mistake too. You came into my life and I kissed you, my girlfriend dumped me, my friends stopped talking to me, but here I am. If you're a mistake, you're the best mistake that's ever happened. Selena you are incredible, I mean if you weren't I wouldn't of flown out just for you. I could be at home with my family eating turkey, but here I am with you on this couch eating cold orange chicken." He chuckled. "My point is, I want to take care of you, make you my princess, I want to be the one that makes you happy, for forever."
"Jc, I um, I love you." I stuttered, trying to mumble so he couldn't hear.
"Well," he sighed. "That's a relief. Because I love you too. I've loved you since the first time I saw you in the front yard of the house down the street from me."
Again, I don't know how long we sat there. The silence was anything but awkward. The only awkward part was the weird cuddling we had going on since we were sitting up. Eventually, I had to get up to use the bathroom. While washing my hands, I stared at the reflection in the mirror. Here I was, still standing after telling the boy I love one of my darkest secrets, and he's still on the couch waiting for me. I couldn't help but smile and release a small giggle.
When I walked back to the couch he was sitting with his head in his hands.
"Babe?" I whispered.
"I lied to you." He sighed.
"About?" I asked, confused and hurt at the same time.
"Castillo." He jumped up. "My last name's Castillo."
"Wait? That's it?" I laughed nervously.
"It's not funny Selena. I hate telling people my name. They either laugh because Caylen is a stupid middle name or because I barely look mexican." He started to pace.
"So, Jc, stands for Justin Caylen, and you're Justin Caylen Castillo? And that's the big thing you lied about?" I laughed even more.
"Why are you laughing?" He crossed his arms and furrowed his brows.
"Because," I started, opening up is arms and hugging him. "You seemed like you were going to tell me you were born a girl or something huge. It was cute Mr. Castillo."
"Stop it." He laughed, hugging me tightly. "You're going to make me not want to leave."
"I don't want you to leave." I sighed.
"So come back with me." He said after a few minutes. "Well not right now, but I mean after I graduate. Move in with me, I'll get my own apartment and we can just be together."
"Jc, you're crazy." I laughed.
"I'm serious. Promise me if we last that long you will." He said, holding out his pinky finger to me.
"I promise." I smiled, squeezing our pinkies together.
"God I don't want to leave yet." He sighed again, releasing his grasp.
"We still have tomorrow." I chimed, trying to sound reassuring. I surely didn't want him to leave either. "And I can go there for Christmas, it's only a few weeks away."
"I'm just going to miss sleeping with you in my arms, I mean I know we'll still iChat and fall asleep like that but it's not the same." He shrugged.
"Hey, at least I'll get my bed back." I laughed.
"You'll miss me taking up space just wait." He grinned.
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Apparently in the midst of our late night conversations of future plans and how much we'd miss each other, we fell asleep in the living room. Jc lied across the long couch while I curled up in the love seat.
"Jc?" I half whispered, still in a half conscious state.
"Good morning." I heard him mumble.
I stared at the clock and saw it was almost 10. I got up and skipped upstairs while Jc flipped over on the couch trying to get comfortable again. Making my way to the shower, I half cursed at myself for it already being Friday. Jc would get on a plane in a few hours and I'd come home to an empty house. As the water beat against my back I silently cried trying to get the sadness out of my system. At least we'd have today. Once out of the shower, I quickly got dressed in black yoga pants and Jc's sweater which he demanded I keep. I dried my hair and put it into a low side braid before pulling on white converse and waking downstairs. I soon found a showered Jc scouring through his luggage which had been previously packed. His jeans clung to his hips with his boxers slightly peeking out. Even his flustered face was cute. Once he found a plain gray t-shirt and another of his sweaters he turned around finally noticing me.
"Oh um hi." I blushed, pulling his shirt over his head.
"Good morning." I giggled. "So where to today Mr. Castillo?"
"Well Ms. Ramos, we could go bowling." He grinned. Once he had his sweaters and shoes on he reached for my keys. "But I'm driving."
"Your wish is my command." I laughed, grabbing my bag and walking towards the door.
We climbed in and began making our way to the bowling alley. The wait for a lane wasn't very long since nobody was there, they were probably all pooped out from Black Friday shopping.
"I'm gonna kick your ass!" Jc teased, picking up a ball of the rack.
"We'll see about that." I laughed, picking up a bright pink 8 pound ball an placing it in our rack.
Jc soon returned with a midnight blue 11 pounder and decided he wanted to pick our names for the game. I laughed as he typed in Peasant for his and Princess for mine. I watched on as he started the game, gracefully flinging the ball down the lane only to gutter ball it. As the game went out Jc and I slowly progressed, laughing and joking about each other's throws. The few hours we had left together were almost up and neither of us wanted to go.
Soon we found ourselves sitting in the car of the airport not saying anything. Jc held my hand and squeezed tightly in short intervals.
"I don't want to go." He whispered.
"It's not good bye, it's just an I'll see you soon." I sighed, not wanting him to go either. The second he let go of my hand my heart sank.
I knew time was quickly running out, I could only be parked here for 15 minutes and 10 had already gone bye. I watched as he pulled his bags out of the trunk and made his way back to me.
"Soon?" He grinned slightly.
"Soon." I tried to smile back. His lips softly crashed into mine for a few seconds and his arms soon wrapped around my shoulders.
"I love you." He whispered into my ear before letting go.
"I love you too." And just like that, Jc was gone again.
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So it's like 4 in the morning and I just really wanted to update because I LOVE this chapter. I would've updated yesterday (Friday the 29th) but it was my birthday so of course I was busy.
I try to update as much as I can but sometimes I honestly just can't. The passed few months have been super hard for me and I appreciate everyone who's waited patiently for updates. It means the world to me that y'all read these things.
I'm going to try to update in the next few days to 2 weeks ish just depending on what I have going on,
So until then, love y'all <3 xoxo
(P.s if there are spelling errors, sorry!)
