Gray Rainbow (Soramafu)

Country Of Islets

~Mafumafu's POV~

His voice interrupted these thoughts I had. "Earlier, you wanted to know why I was actually there, right?" I nodded a bit to answer his question. "Well, I knew they would do this... They talked about their plan yesterday, while I was with them. They were my friends and they didn't know, that I know you." I was surprised as he said that, but at the same time I wondered why he didn't showed up earlier. I just hoped he would tell me a good reason. Maybe he just didn't knew when they exactly wanted to do that?

"At first I thought it was a bad joke and ignored it, but I couldn't sleep at all, because I worried a lot, so I ran to your house. You know what followed.", He explained. "I'm sorry, that I didn't come, before they crashed your door." "It's okay. You were there and you saved me. That is the only thing that matters." I calmly answered. "You're too understanding Mafumafu. I really like that side of you, even though it can be bad for you. Sometimes you shouldn't forgive people." He said that with a warm smile that made my heart skip a beat. "It's just how I am. That's why I'm such an easy target for bullies too." I answered before I yawned. It was still in the middle of the night and I hadn't slept at all.

A bit embarrassed I looked at Soraru as he offered, "Do you want to sleep? You can use my bed if you want to. I'll just take the couch." "But this is your bed." I mumbled as I looked down to hide my cheeks, which turned red, because of the thought of me sleeping in his bed. I didn't really know how Soraru's scent smelled, but at this time it was the only thing I wanted to know more
than anything else, but I didn't want to start sniffling right know. So the opportunity to sleep in his bed was really tempting. 

I felt how my face got really warm, because of my own embarrassing and somehow strange thoughts. "I will put a new cover on the bed, ok?", He was already on the way, when he finished his sentence, so I couldn't answer. I sighed and hid my face in my hands.

After a few seconds I stood up and looked for the room he went to. After a short while I heard him say, "Mafumafu are you searching for something?" I followed the direction the voice came from and answered, "I wanted to help you with the cover." "I already finished it, so don't worry.", He said smiling and then went out of the room. Before he was out of my sight he stopped and looked at me. "This is the bathroom" He pointed at a door directly next to his bedroom. "Thank you Soraru-san. Sleep well." "Good night Mafu." He went back to the living room and I sat down on his bed.

This was such a strange feeling. Sitting on the bed of the person you met just yesterday and you already have a crush on. I wished he would have slept next to me in this bed, but it would have made me think even weirder things than before.

Before I laid down and took the remote control for the light I looked around in the room. The walls were painted light blue just like the sky and the windows were really big. His bedroom was just as friendly as his living room. Actually, you could tell that Soraru liked the sky, because of the room. Through the big windows you could see the sky and the walls were the same colour as the sky too. I really liked that somehow obsessed part of him, because I thought it was one of the few cute parts of him.

The smell of the pillow on which my head was laying was sweet, but somehow it had a manly touch in it. I really liked it and the thought of Soraru smelling like that made me blush and let my heart race. I hoped I could get close enough to smell this scent on him. I had to stop my own thoughts. If I had continued them my body, maybe would have started reacting even more.

Slowly my heart calmed down again and with the smell of Soraru in my nose I started sleeping.

The next morning I woke up as I heard Soraru going into the bathroom. I looked down at myself and realized that I slept with all my clothes. I wanted to change them, but at the same time I wanted to say goodbye to Soraru before I left. I stood up and went to the bathroom door. I heard the water of the shower and decided to sit down on the couch to wait there for him.

I didn't want to turn on the TV, even though waiting for Soraru wasn't the most exciting thing in this world. Only two seconds later, when I began to image him shower, I regretted my decision. With a bright red face, I looked at the pictures next to the TV and shook my head. I shouldn't think about those things.

I met him yesterday and still I felt already a love for him that made me scared of myself. I never had this kind of thoughts before either. It made me get so irritated. In this kind of moment everybody could have told that I was a virgin. Before today I never even thought if it as a bad thing, but now it made me get pretty insecure. What if he isn't a virgin like me anymore? He would probably laugh about me. I'm already 20 years old and haven't even kissed someone. I sighed and realized that these thoughts were neither really helpful nor appropriate after knowing him for only one day.

I heard the bathroom door and stood up. "Soraru-san?", I said and looked at him. His hair was still a bit wet from the water. He really looked good with his hair like this. "Did you sleep well Mafu?", He asked and smiled at me. "I did, but I didn't take off my clothes and I feel pretty disgusting." I answered him honestly. "Do you want to wear some clothes of mine?" I shook my head and explained, "I want to go home and shower there. I don't want to bother you any longer." "You're not bothering me at all, Mafu."

He came a bit closer and looked at my hair. "This messy hair looks better on you than I imagined." I blushed a bit before I answered, "Thank you, but I really have to go now." He looked disappointed at me. "See you soon, ok?" I nodded and headed out of his flat. My thoughts and my feelings were a mess, because of this one person. I didn't like it, but I couldn't do anything against it either.

With my mind still this mixed up I arrived at home. The first thing I did when I was there was showering. Then I brushed my teeth, combed my messy hair and so on. When I finished everything I sat on my own couch and felt an emptiness that I knew way too good. "Not again" was the only thing that I could think.