Gray Rainbow (Soramafu)

Drama and a Deformed City

~Mafumafu's POV~

One month after Soraru's birthday, I decided to go shopping for Christmas, trying to avoid the masses of people, by doing it in the beginning of December and not two days before that certain day arrived.

I still hadn't talked with Amatsuki about my feelings towards Soraru, but after some days of continuously asking me about it, Amatsuki gave in and stopped with his questions and our conversation got more relaxed again.

Luckily, I had already finished recording the last song of Soraru's new album and could now concentrate on my own work again, but before I started a new song, I wanted to get the shopping done first.

Therefore, I decided to use this relatively friendly autumn day for buying a present. It was just as cold as in winter, but there were still some days before the next season officially started.

As I stepped out of the room, I saw the sun shining brightly, just like in Sommer, but the coldness that welcomed me, not even ten seconds after I went out of the corridor to my flat, reminded me of the fact that it was already December.

The last leaves were now fallen down and everything looked pretty grey and somehow sad. Even though it was always like this in winter too, I liked it more than any other season. The reason was easy, the snow that fell was the most beautiful and calming thing for me.

Unfortunately, there were no news about snow for the next weeks, but it couldn't be helped. I I just looked around again, trying to concentrate on finding an idea for the present, that I would give to Soraru.

I originally had planned to give him only the necklace, that I got from my parents, but I thought, that there had to be something, that I bought by myself for him, as a present too. And somehow even the shopping was a part of Christmas too, at least that is what I heard. I never really celebrated it till now, but Sakata and Urata told me, that they did celebrate it too, and maybe, I thought, I could get closer to Soraru by doing this.

Now the only problem was finding the right present for him.

Somehow, over the way, I got distracted by my surroundings and completely forgot about the present. Especially a cat in the corner of the walkway caught my attention. Concerned about her walking on the street, I reached out for her, totally ignoring the fact that I was allergic to cats, and tried to lift her, but at this moment I sneezed out of the blue.

The cat immediately hissed and jumped on the street. I closed my eyes out of a reflex and only heard the noise of a muffled impact.

The next thing, that I saw after I opened my eyes was the dead cat, lying bleeding on the street. The sight of the injuries on the cat, that lived just minutes ago made me want to throw up and scream at the same time, but the only thing that came out of my mouth was a small whine.

It felt like an eternity, that I kneeled there, tears all over my face, with no one even realizing it, before I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder.

Startled, I looked up and saw a worried looking Soraru right in front of me. I didn't really think about it and just hugged Soraru, now crying quietly into his shoulder.

"What happened Mafumafu?", he asked, slowly placing his hand on my back and beginning to move it in circles, to comfort me. I didn't know if my voice was going to come out, if I tried, so I just pointed at the street, where the cat's dead body was.

He lifted my head and stroke some hair out of my face, before stating, "But that's not your fault, you have to blame the one who drove the car." I sobbed harder, while trying to explain why it really was my fault, "I-I tried to move the cat away... Away from the street and then," loud sobs, that escaped my mouth, kept me from continuing talking.

"And then?", Soraru asked, now moving his hand from my back to my shoulder. "Because of my allergie, I sneezed and startled the cat, so that it jumped on the street and got hit by the car... It's my fault Soraru-san!" I placed my own hands on my face and began to shiver, while trying to keep myself from crying, but it was pointless.

Suddenly I felt Soraru take my hands, slowly moving it away from my face and then holding it into his own. I could feel my cheeks heating up and my heart beating faster. Just by this kind of skin contact I felt myself falling in love even more and somehow it scared me.

"You didn't know this was going to happen. You just wanted to help this cat, there's nothing wrong with this. Don't blame yourself... It's okay." he gave me an encouraging smile and suggested, "Let's go shopping together, okay? You wanted to buy Christmas presents, didn't you?" I nodded and then noted, "But I wanted to buy your present... Then it won't be a surprise, right?"

He laughed and then let go of my hands. "That doesn't matter to me. Just let us exchange it today. I have to celebrate with someone else, so this a really good opportunity."

I exactly knew who he talked about; this girl from about a month ago. He would surely want to spend that day with her. But of course I rather give him the necklace today instead of never. From the day on, on which I got it, I always had it by my side, hoping to find someone else to give it to, but there was no one and, maybe, there will never be someone else.

I faked a smile and while I wiped away the tears that were still on my cheek, I said, "Right. Let's go and get some presents."

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"Do you have something you'd like me to get for you?" I looked around in the shop we were in. One of those you get all kinds of decoration objects, silverware and so on. Nothing really expensive was in there and somehow I got the feeling, that the necklace maybe would be something too much, but I didn't want to keep it forever either.

A bright pink item caught my eye and Soraru, who had observed me carefully took the pink soft toy bird. "It's just the same." I mumbled, taking it from him and holding onto it carefully. I could see him looking at me, totally confused.

"The same as the one I had in my childhood." He smiled and pulled his wallet out of his pocket. "Then I'm going to buy it for you. Is it enough as a Christmas present?" I nodded enthusiastically and brought it to the cash register. Soraru paid for it and then we walked out of the store.

"I actually already have something for you I said while sitting down on a bench." He sat down next to me and asked surprised, "Ah, really? Then why did you even come here?" I looked down at my hands and thought about what to say. "I thought it wouldn't be enough." I said truthfully. "But you changed your mind, right?" I nodded again and then took out the small box, in which the necklace was.

I gave it to Soraru and watched him carefully opening it. He looked really surprised when he took it out of the box and put it on by himself. "It's really beautiful." Soraru said and then explained smiling, "I think that my present for you isn't worth that necklace at all, so I think I have to get you something really big for your next birthday."

"There's no need for this." I stated and observed Soraru, as he opened the pendant. "Which picture should I put in? Maybe one of the two of us? But wouldn't it be a bit too much?" He blushed a bit when he said this and it made him look even cuter than normal. "You should put the picture of someone you truly love in it."

"You're right. I should do this." He smiled like he already had an idea of which picture to put in.

"I have to go now. Take care." With this words Soraru stood up, waved and walked away, still smiling.

I sighed and placed my hands on my hot cheeks. I had started to blush when he took the box and it got worse and worse over time. I was so excited and the fact that he liked it calmed me down a lot. Even though I knew that he wouldn't use my picture, I was still happy about his reaction.

But this happiness shouldn't last long.

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(Author Note)

Sorry for not uploading in a really long time. 

I was just too busy to write anything and now I'm happy, that I'm  finally able to present you 2 new chapters.